Blood work was negative but I think it was taken too soon. All the classic symptoms are there. To say I’m devastated is an understatement. Not sure if I am just feeling sorry for myself but don’t see being able to move forward. Hopeless beyond all hope.
I know you're feeling pretty helpless right now but I want you to know that it does get better. People live perfectly normal lives with herpes, it's a rollercoaster of a journey with many ups and downs but it will help you learn a lot about yourself and what you seek in other people. The stigma starts with yourself, you control your thoughts. If you tell yourself everything will be okay, it will be. I felt all the same feelings of hopelessness when I was diagnosed 2 months ago, and while its still very new to me I know for a fact that I am still the same amazing person as before, just with an annoying skin condition. Do yourself a favor and take care of your body, exercise and eat healthy, and take yourself to the doctor to get a culture of the lesions since it came up negative on the blood test. The blood test tests for antibodies and it was probably too soon to tell. You will be okay, stay strong! There's tons of support groups for people like us that have been through the same situation and I've found it helps me tremendously to talk to others.
Thank you for your comments as they mean a lot to me. This is obviously something I need to work out in my mind because right now my thoughts are all very dark. My life as I knew it doesn’t exist anymore and I’m depressed and to be honest very scared. I do need to find someone to talk with and get things worked out in my mind. Thanks again for your comments.