I want to understand what's going on with someone with depression. I fell inlove with someone who's going through hell. He had really bad relationships and the last one was worst. He lost 2 daughters and that's the only thing he wants. He hated the world and wants to be left alone. I did everything, I made sure he felt he's not alone even if we're miles away. Even if he pushed me away I stayed and check on him time to time on facebook Until we became okaHe said he wanted to try and see how it feels being loved again. Although he's having times when he doesn't want to talk, he made sure I am loved. Until his ex did something again. Then all of a sudden he said he doesn't want to do anything for anyone anymore. That after everything he's being treated as sh*t. We're still okay, we planned of seeing each other. He told me that I should not expect anything from him coz there's no black and white with his emotions. That we will just keep it cool and not romanticized everything. When we met, I can feel the walls but we were okay. There are time he's playfull and even if we didn't really enjoyed that much it was okay as what he said. He even said its not goodbye but see you soon when he left. When he get back, I asked him about us. Although he doesn't want to talk about relationships he made sure we were still okay. We talk everyday and when one time I said whatever happens I want him to remember I love him he asked if I'm feeling distant. He said I should not take everything personally when he's having time when he doesn't want to talk. Until oneday, I never stopped asking him about us even he's saying he doesn't want to talk about it. But I kept asking so he explained that I should not expect consistency in his actions. I kept saying he should have told me we're not in a relationship etc, that I love him but I am hurt..He said, he cares for me immensely and is okay to have whatever we have and still talk everyday. That if I want to do whatever I want to make me happy he's okay and will still talk to me everyday. The next day I asked again if he wants me to wait. He said no. I asked why. He said he doesn't want to talk about it and I kept asking again. Then he said I don't want to go into dephts because I might be brutally honest and hurt you even if its not intentional. I still asked, he said I don't have the traits he's looking for a wife. I was shocked! I mean, after everything. Then I kept asking and he blocked me. I called and asked sorry, he said I just don't want to talk about it and then added me again. I'm confused. Does this mean he really doesn't want me or its because his mind is not in good state. I'm in denial I guess although we still talk.
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