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Mental health
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Well where do I start. For the past week or so I have started to feel better😊 My stools are returning to normal the past few days, instead of mushy cow pat that I was having for over 2 weeks. Went about a week without eating anything as the sight of food made me feel sick & couldn’t stomach anything. I was having lower achey back pains that lasted 3 days. And other sensations & dizziness.

 For the past week or so the dizziness have almost gone 😊 the repitive coughing has about gone😊 stools are forming right the past few days, but was a bit constipated earlier, which resulted in setting of my anal fissure again! I’ve started to eat little & often, but I still can’t eat much? Probably eat a small kids portion of dinner. Still get dry mouth every morning when I wake up & when I’ve eaten? 

Today I attended 2 job interviews, which I don’t know how I did it as my confidence has gone downhill big time. So that was an achievement 😊. 

But since this morning have a dull aching pain on my Right upper abdomen and back. I have tried to forget about it but my fears keep creeping in.😢 

I worry about the c word . And worry about my pancreas & liver as I have high Bilirubin levels( apparently I’ve got Gilbert Syndrome). I worry about my stomach also as I can’t stomach much still even though I want to. I want to put weight back on but I’m still loosing.

Ive had blood tests done, ultrasound on abdomen area & X-ray on lungs & apparently all fine, just the Bilirubin levels which was High on the normal scale about a week ago. 

I’m really really trying to not think dark thoughts and I’m trying to ignore all symptoms & sensations. But this pain isn’t going away!

My mother in law sadly passed away last September from pancreatic/ liver cancer.  😭And it scared me so much.

Can’t understand why I’m having these feelings when I don’t feel as anxious as what I did.

Im just waiting on one more stool test for Calprotectin (inflammation of the bowel) I think. All of the others came back ok. 

I just want to get to the bottom of this for me to move forward! 

Appointment isn’t till Tuesday with the Drs, which seems weeks away. I want answers to why & to be reassured I haven’t got any deadly disease.

would blood tests & ultrasound definitely pick up any abnormalities? You hear of so many missed diagnosis, it’s frightening ☹️.

Take Care All xx

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Oh and I’m always burping 😕 Any ideas what this could be? Xx

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Hey it could be IBS or acid reflux which I have and I also am always burping and have problems with bowels. Maybe try some supplements 

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IBS and acid reflux can’t be diagnosed with blood test or X-ray. Normally Only by the symptoms you tell your doctor after they have ruled everything out from tests

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Thanks Josh for your reply .

I did wonder if it could be acid reflux by some of the comments I’ve seen on here. I’m trying to restrict myself on going on Dr google for anything.

So I don’t know much about it. 

I hope that it’s not serious and is that. I think I could cope with that.

Do you take any supplements? If so what helps you?

Take Care xx

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My IBS and acid reflux is triggered by anxiety so really just take paroxetine for anxiety and a tranquilzer called lorazepam which is amazing for anxiety. If I get bad acid reflux I take omeprazole 10mg which is prescribed by a doctor. I take meta mucil for my IBS which is a fibre supplement which helps as well

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Also have you looked into Gilbert Syndrome it is similar to IBS it is harmless so I wouldn’t worry about it 

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Oh okay. I take it there prescribed medication? 

I was prescribed some Beta Blockers that I can take when need to but no more than 3 a day I think. That was a few weeks ago. I have only taken 1 when I kept having these panic attacks, but I was scared of taking them as I get so weary of medications. Which tbh I think has stemmed from that ointment (Regestic) I used which dropped my blood pressure that caused my body to have an anxiety attack. And it’s decided to stay with me ever since ☹️. The dark thoughts don’t help, which was caused by all of the anxiety symptoms/sensations, always thinking the worst. 

I’ve always been an over thinker & a worrier so suppose that don’t help.

I also had a bad reaction with this anti sickness drip I had at the hospital 2 weeks ago. Well my heart rate hit the roof & I felt so so dizzy and bad for ages. Which then they took it out and flushed my system with fluids. Scary time.

Gilbert Syndrome hasn’t really been explained to. I’ve done abit of research but get mixed views. They say it’s not an illness and not serious, some have symptoms and some don’t. 

But I worry when Bilirubin levels go high as I don’t know what can happen & what it indicates? Like could be fatal? Should I have regular check ups to keep an eye on it? Does it affect the pancreas or anything else? You see all these questions go round & round my head.

Like are the blood tests, X-ray & ultrasound right? Would it pick something up? I dunno 🙁 Questions questions questions.

And when I get achey pains near those ares it makes me panic.

Sorry for going on Josh. 

I think I just need answers to what’s happening, what they have tested for& if they are certain that I’m okay.

Did anxiety cause you to have IBS & acid reflux?

How long have you had it? Is it something that can go away?

Xx

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I have had health anxiety all my life it sucks and always thinking I have the c word so I know how you feel. If your condition was serious your doctor would of sent you to a specialist for treatment so you shouldn’t worry.  I would ask your doctor for some lorazepam it really helps the only pill that has ever helped with my anxiety when it gets bad and I have been on a lot of different medication. Yep IBS and acid reflux is a symptom of anxiety. There is a website on anxiety Symptoms if you google anxiety Symptoms 3rd one down anxietycentre over 100 symptoms make sure you go down the whole page that might help.

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Hi jodiemay87,

I have been experiencing the same symptoms you have  and I too, suffer from health anxiety and have convinced myself I have cancer.  I had a mri on liver in January and all was fine with liver, but they did find a benign small cyst on my pancreas and said nothing to worry about.  But for a health anxiety sufferer that’s like the kiss of death for my mind!!!  Now, 6 months later pains are back along with a bout of diarrhea.  PCP did blood work and came back normal.  Diarrhea is better and coming along like you but still having on and off pain.  My mind is reaking havoc with scary senerios.  Would appreciate hearing an update on how you are doing.

Thanks!  Linda

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HI Linda, 

Sorry to hear that you suffer from this horrible health anxiety 🙁

For the past couple of weeks I’ve been a lot better. 

No dizziness, feeling sick etc... & even the diarrhoea had gone.

But Saturday night I took advantage of feeling better & went out for an Indian & drank 3 beers & 1 WKD. Which I have been avoiding for the past month or so.

I mean I have had meat , rice , salad & small amounts of Mild curry sauce on a couple of occasions. But Saturday I ate curry ( only Medium), rice, Pompadoms,Green chilli dip, and the raw onion salad. Which I have avoided strong foods.

So guess what happens Sunday morning......... 1 B/M formed normal, 1 B/M like porridge & 2 B/M like water!

All within about 40mins. I felt sick before that what woke me up. Same again this morning but it was like porridge not watery.Which caused the anxiety to come back again 😩

But it’s like a few ppl have said, could be IBS? Just got to stay away from what causes it.

All my tests come back clear. Blood tests checked for Thyroid, Liver Function, blood count, B12 & don’t no what else. Stool sample been checked for Celiac, bugs/ parasites, Calprotectin & all came back clear. Ultrasound on upper abdomen and pelvis all clear X-ray on lungs clear. The persistent cough has gone thank goodness.

One Dr said it could be Acute Diarrhoea that can last up to 4 weeks, and another one said that I could of had a bug & when the tested the stool the bug might gone but left you with the back lash. Because everything else came back clear.

Since after the diarrhoea which did probably last for a month, I have felt better 90% , I get little niggly pains that come & go on upper & lower abdomen, I always wake up really early & feel tired and weak. But I’m slowly building myself back up. I’ve also gained weight 😊.

I’m going to see how the mushy stools go & if don’t get better will go back Drs.

I don’t know what to really advise as I’m only a learners myself. But have you considered CBT? I’m waiting to hear from them, just to help me retrain my brain, to stop these dark thoughts. Might help you get over the benign cyst, which must play a big part of your anxiety ☹️ 

Let me know how things go Linda xx