Awful thoughts this am. Negative thoughts like I am never going to get better. Thoughts that make mr fearful. So unlike me. Just don't know what to do anymore.
I know how u feel. I feel like I'm going crazy like my kind wants to break me and it has. I have thoughts of hurting my children etc and believe me that would never happen I'm a totally push over I love them dearly so I feel so guilty and like a monster. I image people dying etc, getting cancer the list goes on but I'm really not well. I'm in a what I can only explain as a numb dull fog on haze and confusion 
I believe that feeling is classic serve depression. Meds help but only a little for me. I send u love and one day it will be over !!!! Xx
Hi Lynda, I know exactly what your going through, I have the same thoughts. I am seeing therapis, to try and help with my problems.
Hello linda
If it's any consolation Lynda I'm also having a bad day struggled to get out of bed this morning and it's just gone down hill from there. I have got this great big black cloud hovering over me I feel it's never gonna go away but I try and keep positive best I can
jean x
Rachel
thanks for your response. Not sure how you do everything, but I certainly admire you. Tending to your children, running a household and giving helpful advice on this forum. All this and feeling like you do. You are one strong last.
lynda
Jean
positivity has eluded me at the moment. Are you on sertraline.
lynda
I would love to see a psychiatrist but the waiting list is nine months. I live in a small community just outside Toronto Canada. might have to find one in Toronto.
lynda
Hi Lynda, that terrible 9 months! I only waited 3 months in Dundee Scotland.
Meant to say lady.
Thank you. I feel weak not strong but I will help anyone I can as I know how awful it is and how no one understands. Iv cried all day but a lot of it is the stress of all iv been through from this illness x
Yes. I have spend a good deal of the day crying. What is with these meds. Thinking I should just go off them. The what???
lynda