Hey there I am 21 and have never been dignosed with depression but have been told I had anxiety. My doctors surgery is pretty usless and I'm planning on changing.
To make this story short I went through the whole teenage stage of feeling depressed everyday and hurting myself and drinking smoking weed blah blah blah and when I finaly got a job and a boyfriend things started looking up I gave up the smoking weed and only drank whenever it was a birthday or family do.
But not long before that I started having chest pains and it caused me to have a panic attack as I thought it was my heart. When I got a ECG and my blood levels and stuff tested they couldn't find anything wrong with my heart apprently it's normal (I do smoke I know that probs wont help)
I went from having no fear to being scared to even have a can of cola because of the caffine intake. Its hell I am just so tierd all the time but I very rarly sleep I just go to work come home and lie in bed.
I will admit I am unhappy were I am living and where I work but I feel like thats very selfish of me to feel depressed about as there are more people out their that have reasons to feel this way so maybe I'm just lazy and a bit sad?
Doctors have never offered me medication or proper help they just think I'm making this all up which makes me feel even more s**t about myself I hate the way I look I constantly obsess over getting surgery when before I never really cared about my nose or my eyebrows but I have always hated my body even though I lost loads of weight I don't feel good. Yeah of course I still laugh all the time and smile but inside I don't feel like that I don't speak to many friends now and I very rarly go out as I just have a panic attack whenever I'm surrounded by so many people. I hate it I never used to be like this I'm scared of having a heart attack or stroke and maybe smoking weed triggered something but I even get down about that as I miss the escape from reality and happyness I felt but I don't touch the stuff anymore. I want to be able to go out with friends and enjoy me young life but I can't.
at 16 I wanted to die and did try to attempt suicide
at 21 I am doing everything I can to stop me from dying young.
It sucks I go from feeling alright to back to this again and I just feel like I am being a pain in the ass to everything as my family have never really listened to what I am trying to tell them
Sorry this is so long I'm just really upset just now 
Hi Weecare
My anxiety started at a similar age. Do you have any idea what may have triggered it?
I am shocked and disgusted by your Doctors attitude, if yu feel they are being unhelpful I would defintely consider chaning to another GP.
You are not lazy and sad, feeling down about where you live and work are all typical of depression.
All I can say is with the right help and support you will get through this. I had panic attacks and agoraphobia on and off since I was in my late teens I no longer have anxiety attacks, I had medication and had counselling but I got through it myself by analysing what the panic attacks did to me, I was petrified I would die, have an asthma attack, you name it. I came to the realisation that all the panic attacks did was scare me, make me feel shaky and at no point did the things I imagined such as dying ever happen, it's not easy and takes the will and motivation to do.
I'e had an eating disored to and it's a daily battle, I freak out if I put as much as a pound on.
If you feel like family aren't able to help or are listening is there anyone you could speak to who has been through a similar thing? When I had my anxiety attacks I felt very much alone until I attened a group where I met other people going through the same thing, that helped too.
Take care of yourself.
Jackie x
Hi Cara, sorry to hear you are feeling this way. These certainly are not the feelings of someone 'who is lazy or a bit sad' as you put it. I urge you to go back to your gp again. I do know what it's like to have an unsympathetic gp as I had one too, but what I did then was go back a second time, but with mum and it was a totally different experience. Maybe take someone who can also explain how things are for you too. I am 34 and took my mum with me, so don't feel awkward doing so. Or take someone else possibly for a bit of support. There is treatment to help us so you must avail of it 
Thank for your support It makes things a little bit easier knowing that we are not all alone. I have just went from feel alirght to back to this mental state. My friend recently passed away, he wasn't a close or a best friend and I hadn't seen him in a while but sadly passed a few weeks ago and I still chose to go all the way to London from Glasgow to go to his funeral but ever since then I have suddenly switched in moods but never thought to relise that his passing might be the reason I am so unsure what has brought this on I don't even know who I am or what I want in life now xxx
Glad I could be of help. I do think it makes things easier knowing you are not alone. Really sorry to hear about your friend, I lost a cousin last November she was relatively young waiting for a transplant, I think losing someone does knock you and it makes you look more closely at yourself. I think you really need to speak to someone, in my desparation I rang our local MH helpline but they were useless but you may have somemthing better where you live? Failing that I found the Samaritans by far the best, they were amazing, you don't have to ring a National number I found a local number which costs a lot less and they're contactable 24/7. Take care Jackie x
Sorry about your cousin it's not nice when things like that happen xxxx and yeah I used to email the samaritains and i found they were pretty good to talk to this was 2 years ago and I had fallen into a bad state of mind for a few weeks and the guy was very concerened and tried his best to make me feel alot better did a better job that a gp. I am planning to change my gp surgery soon anyway my boyfriend has been a good help the past few weeks and he has offered to come with me and say his point of view because i think it is effecting him a little but doesn't want to admit it xx take care <3 xxxxx
Couldn't fault the lady I spoke to at the Samaritans she was lovely, very understanding and they don't judge you or your situation. Good idea to change the GP if they're not helping you. Very pleased to hear your boyfriend is so supportive, make sure you don't push him away I know it's not easy but better you have support, he will be worried about you but try and talk to each other re your feelings. My husabnd has pushed us all away, says he doesn't want to hurt me and doesn't feel worthy of me, he has even refused professional help, very sad but nothing we can do. Take care J x
I am so greatfull I have him helping I would be in a worse state if he wasn't.Thank you so much for advice and suport <3 you take care of yourself! xxx