I am sick of everything... My story is this : I was in love and me and my girlfriend was together for two years... I had seen things.. I join the army and saw 3 of my best friend tried to commit suicide, and although things were hard I had the love of my love waiting for me.. Than I mange to got out of that base and I was transferred into a closer base and it couldn't be better, I saw her every single day, but then I had some medical problems and I had a surgery, and I was in the hospital for 4 Days and I waited to her but she didn't came, and I asked her where are you and she didnt answer and I told her I love her but she didn't answer, only 4 hours later she replade that she is in a movie with some guy and that she kissed him, I was devestited, I want to die, and then she send me a lot of pictures that she took with other guys and she sended it to me, and I was in shok, after that she sended me messages every day saying that she love me but than she want to him, and for two month she melsted me by doing things like sending me pictures of him and saying that he is perfect not like me , and then I got messages that say that I should go to hell and that she wants me to drop dead , and I got allot of those every morning, and then I got pictures of him burning every picture and every thing that I bought her, and I asked her to stop I asked her with tears in my eyes and she told me that she want me to suffer, and than I got voice messages that he will kill me and that he will come to me, and I was scared, I called her mom and I told her the I want to call the police, and that ther little girl is killing me, I dropped 10 kilos in two weeks and my medical condition got worse, and from then I didn't got any messages from her again, but I saw her in my small city and she looked at me and put her harm on his shoulders so I will see it, I want to die, I saw nothing but black, my friends didn't let me to run to the desert , but I don't want to wake up in the morning, I don't want to sleep, I don't want to live...
I used to have so many dreams but now my only wish is to die...
And I can't talk to enyone, my mom medical condition will get lbad becuse of this if I tell her, my dad is getting angry if I tell him, the army don't even care, and I am alone, nothing worth living for except from my family remains ((
She might seem important now but you will meet someone else. I recommend you see somebody, a therapist and tell them how you feel. If you really need someone to talk to you can call the crisis team. They do home visits and may be able to sort some medication that can help a lot. I'm not sure what the number outside of Coventry is but 03002000011 might be it. Try googleing crisis team. If you want to talk to somebody over the phone you can call the Samaritans
Hi, You've had a lucky escape, you just don't realise it yet. You're worth more than what she did to you. Time will heal you and you have friends who obviously want the best for you as they stopped you going off into the desert. Of course you feel like life isn't worth living. Most people who have been in love and betrayed by them will feel exactly like you feel right now.
Spend time with your friends, do some fun things, watch something funny that will make you laugh. Eventually, the hurt will heal and when it does you will realise that I am right. We all look back and feel such idiots for thinking that the world had ended when they are just not worth the upset and pain they cause.
If there really is no-one to talk to, no priest or pastor, or any other person who would listen, then coming on here and saying how you feel will help you. If anyone doesn't understand how miserable you feel and says hurtful things, ignore them and concentrate on those who do understand and want you to feel better.
If you can get some form of counselling, it would help to make you feel better quicker, but it sometimes does take time and time does help to get things more in perspective.
Good luck and when you find someone worh your love, look back on it and realise how lucky you really are.
Hi it's sad when someone breaks your heart, I was down for a couple of years when myenvoled e of groupsrs walked out on me plus our 2 children.
I hah to make the effort to rebuild my I joined up a couple of meeting sites a woman said to me that did I love my self I said no , then I did I looked into the mirror and my life changed.
You will have to do the same, life goes on your will have to find new people and get envoled with groups or take up some hobbies, live life and enjoy your self.
i didnt got a sms from then , but she give me likes on instgram and facebook and then delting it so that i will have the notifcation but that it will be a false one , and she came to my sister class with her boyfriend and they alcture on somthing about fathe and they had lughted on my sister and unmilated her , and she tried to tell evreyone my secrtes but i know that some people had stoped her ,
the army is now agreeing that i will see sicologist .
and i tried to be strong , to pass this , but no matter how hard i try , i dont want to be here no more , i was hangry last night , that i still alive and i thought to my self , god punished me , i had the worth year onyone could ever had , and i dont want to be here anyomore , i want to run away , as far as i can , were no one will know me , were i can stared over , i am despret for love that i dont think that i will get.