[This is very long] Major Health Anxiety: Worrying about Aids, Cancer ect

Mental health
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Hello everyone, I hope some people can help point me in the right direction. I'm sorry this is so long but I feel I need to fully explain PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

So I've always been A worry wart/anxious for a long time, always sususpecting the worst, but it all went south in June, I fired up some weed my cousin gave after a night of Anime, Playstation and Nintendo [We're those kind of guys] anyway The morning came fast and he left, that afternoon I fired of the weed and had an insane panic attack on the street, it was my first time.

I was able to seek help and brush it off in time for my trip to barcelona, I returned and the following weeks were fine.

a gaming event was coming up early august and again my cousin and this time a friend from london came over to spend the night at mine before going to the event, they had the Wedz [weed] and insisted I tried a little before saying I wont do it again, I was scared but tried it anyway [sily me] Shortly after the panic started,

THE NEXT DAY I ran into a friend at the convention, he was smoking cigarettes before he spoke to me and the smell on him triggered a panic in me!? dafuq?

A WEEK LATER I had fixed my bike [since during my time uni cycling was my way of letting off steam, I've always felt lonely so cycling was my way of exploring the environment and myself] and took it for a test ride, it was fine, the next day I went much more intensely and as I slowed down I didn't feel right, I couldn't catch my breath, I got ultra anxious and had to walk to the food shop to sit and relax to which I called the ambulance.

The following 3 weeks was a PANIC ATTACK SUPER ANXIOUS NIGHTMARE, Could hardly relax, fear of having a heart attack, dying a 22 y/o virgin whos never had a girlfriend, not being able to become an animator, while I feel alot better I still feel terrible.

So? What about the cancer/aids ect fears...Oh jeez I already wrote so much so lets carry on

Sorry for some time I've had bleeding gums, not my oral care hasn't been the best, but not terrible, These days I try to be very on top of it, last night I noticed what seemed to be blood between a set of tweeth where I've never had much issue, straight away I assumed maybe Lukeamia. I also had stomach loating and a weird feeling on my lower right stomach and right away assumed Apendictis. If my head feels heavy I worry it might be a Brain Tumour. This morbid thoughts never seem to leave my mind, considering two of my friends died within the space of a year.   

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aaron

Make an appointment with the Dentist if your gums are bleeding, it is better you get them checked as you MAY loose some teeth.

With regards your Anxiety and fears , Heart Attack, Brain Tumour and Cancer talk to your GP I could say it is anxiety, although I do not feel you will believe me so your GP will arrange tests He thinks are needed. If you feel you need your Appendix out your GP knows a simple test that can show if something is wrong with that

Good Luck

BOB

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I am not a doctor, these are my opinions.

Well hells bells of course you will have panic, two friends died within the space of a year!  That is scary for most folks. You are not alone.  

Pot has the tendency to make some folks paranoid especially if they have too much; the stuff people smoke these days is strong! Not like when I was in school back in the 70's.  smoking too much will cause paranoia and panic,  but it will not last weeks, but the PTSD from the loss of your friends, mixed with the memory of the pot happening, YA! Of course you'd flip.  

If you have not yet spoken to a greif counselor, i would highly recommend it.  What you are expericning is a natrual reaction to what you went through. it is not a tumor or cancer. it is PTSD.

 

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For a moment, pretend I am your most loved relative:

take better care of your teeth, brush and floss every evening before retire, and eat well. if you are worried about dying; nutrition helps the everything heal, if you eat crap like most folks do, you will get sick with disease. that's a promise.  I am proof of that.