I had a terrible experience in a previous job with a boss who took a dislike to me. I am hard working with lots of friends but I seem to be a target for emotional manipulation.
I have had my current boss for over 4 years and in thy time a lot has happened. My best friend was brutally murdered and I had to work with a colleague who was involved in the incident making things very difficult. My boss decided during this time to make my life even harder and I was subject to being spoken to with disrespect. Public ally humiliated. I have been approached by two colleagues who see that this is happening and I am petrified of what will happen when I'm not working. Every day off that I have had I come back to an email of such petty things but he feeds from the fact that sending these whilst I am off builds my Fear of him as I access these whilst off. Colleagues say he is threatened by the good work I do and he feels threatened. I am no threat I come to work do my best and do well.
I cannot escape the fear and want the wrap myself up under a blanket and never come out. My mum has a history of OCD and depression and I take a lot of her worries. It feels like everythinh is pressing on top of me with no escape. I don't think I am asking for advice. Altho any help would be amazing butnjust needed to talk. Thanks for listening