Tired of being "out of it"

[nh_user_1141895]

Dear Reader,

You are in for a long post and I assure you it may be beneficial in some way. I plan to make this into a big post with my findings. If you plan to reply, Thank you. However, I ask please don't reply unless you read the whole thing. I do not mean to be rude but, I need people to completely understand the issues im going through Instead of picking through this post. All love.

So I have been experiencing so many issues since about September. I was playing WoW(world of warcraft) on a nightly basis till about 4 a.m. I would stay up all night playing WoW and then wake up again the next day at about 12pm-3pm. 

One night while playing, I started feeling so fatigued. This was a pretty severe fatigue, so naturally I went to sleep. I woke up the next day with aches, pains and even more fatigue. I decided to go to bed early that night to get more sleep. The next day i woke up with the same issues no different. So all of that progressed and eventually got so unbearable i had to quit WoW.

I was out one night picking up pizza, when suddenly I got the most extreme headache in my life. I went home and went to sleep mainly because i couldnt stay up. I woke up an hour later feeling much better and energized. Well as the weeks started progressing, Halloween night (About a month) I didn't feel like walking around. I walk around every year on Halloween to see the lights. My fatigue was so horrible. Then the next day it progressed into severe head pressure and chronic daily fatigue with aches and pains. So I went to the GP he diagnosed it as anxiety. (I have been to the GP before for the Fatigue and Sinusitis back in march 2017) I took it with a grain of salt and decided fine "I have anxiety". I am not an anxious person at all. So, one night in the middle of Novemeber I had to go to the ER. Chest pains, Severe headache, trouble breathing, blurry vision, double vision, arm weakness, numbness, "Feeling like i was going to (D)ied  It scared me. They thought it was Anxiety as well.

Fast forward to now.

I have had Ultrasounds everywhere, all they have found were "Lipomas" and a swollen lymph nodes in my neck. I have had 8 ECG/EKG, a 24-hour ECG/EKG 24 hour BP monitor all that was fine. I have been diagnosed with sleep apnea and use a CPAP every night.

To this day, I have chronic head pressure, Face pressure, back pain, "breathing issues", severe fatigue, Derealisation Severe, along with Depersonalisation, feelings of not being right in the head or thinking im going crazy, or filled with severe dread. Thinking im going to (D)ie It is horrible. I feel like im never going to get better. I am not convinced it is anxiety. I believe it is an undiagnosed disease that has caused issues and given me depression and anxiety. Mainly due to the swollen lymph nodes, armpit, groin, neck. My GP's will not listen to me and i have been to many specialists.

To the point,

I have all these issues and even as im writing this i feel like I'm not in full control of my body. The derealization is the worst. I feel like im not here and that im going to float away. I have no emotions anymore. I dont feel anything. My memory is off. I truly think something bad is wrong or going to happen. I honestly don't know what to do. 

I'm writing this in hopes of answers. People who have gotten through this similar feeling. People who can feel the exact same way I do and give me answers so that i can share this with everyone else. Please help me so I can help others. I don't want to be like this anymore. It makes me want to do bad things to myself. Please help.

Thank you for reading.

[nh_user_962473]

I have a similar problem  started with me taking medication I didn't know I was taking antidepressants that the doctor gave me for sleep I didn't know they were Antidepressants  notice I was having back pain no appetite so I went to the doctor had told him I'm not able to eat and I'm having back pain so severe it feels like somebody stabbing me so and then he insist it was stress so then I told him I'm gonna go see a natural path doctor to get some herbs for stress so then I end up drinking the tea and taking this antidepressant at the time thinking it was a sleeping pill so I went to sleep I woke up In the middle of the night search beeping out my chest  my clothes were wet  jaw pains chest pains eyes dilated  diarrhea after that day I could not sleep my body wouldn't shut down  got 10 times worse my body started jumping on his own ears were ringing back pains throght pains fluid in my ears it's been one year and five months still feeling the same almost forgot when I have mix the medications together I was waking up dying of thirst for eight months I had to drink eight bottles of water every night like I was suffocating have breathing problems it was like my lungs make noise when I bring hard I had so many test Mri 4 cat scans I know they can tell me is I'm suffering from depression don't know what to do now I need help by the way you should supplement or vitamin liquid supplement B1B6B 12 and see if it helps you and noticed that my ricetta starting to hurt I have tingling sensation on my back right side when I wake up my back feels numb I can't take it no more i refuse  to take antidepressants that's what got me like this I can't believe it my whole life is miserable My body won't  shut down. Haven't took a nap since I mix the medications together the herbs in the antidepressants you don't have no appetite still have the headache it's been one year and five months never went away help is this depression and stress that I failed to mention left testicle pain

[nh_user_962473]

 Hopefully you can figure out what is happening to you my suggestion is go for walks every day try not to worry if you have an appetite you're lucky just look at the big picture it can be worse that's what I tell myself but it  Ihard  to think positive I know hang on everything gets better and I geting so skinny. And I eat don't know was happening to me I know I'm depressed because what I'm going through who wouldn't be

[nh_user_1154516]

Hope this helps. I had something very similar happen years ago, prior to hetro g depressed. Obsessed with weight training, twice a day, every day. Took caffeine tablets to keep me going. Finished at gym at 11.00pm every day. Had a massive anxiety attack, went to hospital, nothing wrong with me. Imagined all sorts of issues. Had to give up weight training, and cut all caffeine out, and I mean all. Although I'd stopped doing what caused issues, anxiety and panic attacks stubbornly remained, for a year or so. A friend suggested shiatsu massage. Completely doubted It, but 5 or 6 sessions, and it was completely gone for a few years. Once you cause an issue like I did, and you have, it takes ages to get back to normal. A few years later I got anxious again, which then led to depression. For myself, it was only having constant worries about imagined health issues, eventually I thought feck It, I haven't died despite worrying about it for a few years, and i didnt care any more. The shiatsu massage worked unbelievably well. I still can't touch caffeine, and would advise anyone with anxiety to completely cut it out, permanently. No good having just a little, it creeps up on me, and then wham. I think if anxiety is prolonged, then you eventually get depressed. Anti depressants work for both anxiety and depression. Has your doctor suggested them?