Tired of this

Hello all, just wanted to post my story in hopes that someone has some idea of my diagnosis. I have suffered with internal hemorrhoids for many yrs but this past yr they have gotten so much worse and are now external too and huge. I have put off going to see a surgeon but now am ready. Only way I can function is with OTC numbing meds I keep on them 24/7. I also believe they got so bad as I have been suffering with some type of GI issue. I had a normal colonoscopy Dec 2013 which showed internal hemorrhoids and mild diverticulosis. Every morning upon awakening, I have an urgent poo which is bloody mucus which is painful to pass due to hemorrhoids. It also has a watery fluid included in mucus, which could be some type of infection, dont know. Then, in an hour or less, I go back for another BM but this time it is usually more brown soft poo. Still hurts but I am aware that is from my hemorrhoids. Feels like passing razor blades. I have a high deductible, so trying to get help from Texas Rehab to pay for what my insurance doesn't but that has not been decided yet, yay or nay. I have started a new OTC today, IBGard recommended by a friend which I hope helps. I take a fiber capsule and probiotic daily. Expecting to need a hemorrhoidectomy when I see the surgeon, terrified but fed up with my

gut issues so I will if it will give me some relief, just want the underlying issue resolved beforehand so they wont return.

Hello any update? How are you?

Still waiting.

Hoping for you recovery with God's grace