So sick of all this, almost 4 years on - total hysterectomy. Thought I was feeling better which was a cruel trick from Mother Nature . Nausea, achy joints, terrible fatigue, anxiety, depression, health anxiety, spaced out, racing heart, palpitations, tummy troubles, thin skin, dental problems, thinning hair, the list goes on. Feel worn out , lethargic all the time, can't sleep without diazepam, racing thoughts of doom and gloom - no HRT . Am i ever gonna feel any better ? If not I don't want this any more, im fat and ugly and most of all I hate myself and hate my life like this - it all feels crap and what's the point if this is it !
Louise
Im glad you are here, and know from being on this site that there is love and support comin your way.
How old are you?
You kinda summed me up there in your post if it makes you feel any better.
I have few openings in my mood where i feel kind of normal, and im so happy for the 6 hours that it lasts, then back down again. Cruel joke right?
YOU can not hate yourself. It is not right, because you will get through this.
It isn't the whole big picture. You need to just look at this like its 'what is' at the moment, or day or month, but it will change.
I have a very hard time doing as I say, but it just will get better know this.
I understand the symptoms too. I dont even bother to post about anything in particular because its NON STOP.
One issue then it becomes another and its is all a blur. Fatigue heavy lethargy and anxiety all mixed together.
Fun times. I actually get really p****d off sometimes but mostly sad and scared for my kids wellbein becasue they are used to a pretty upbeat happy funny fearless mother who has been reduced to a teary eyed wimp with no coping skills, no zest for life. Its freaking heart breaking.
Dont lose hope though. That is all I can say. Keep posting. I try my best day to day, but i tell ya, its pretty touch and go 4-5 days out of the week.
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Hi Louise, would you consider going on HRT? I went on this a few weeks ago and I noticed a easing of menopause symptoms. You could try a very low dose? it certainly helped me... I had some of the symptoms you described...
Oh Louise I feel for you
Why can't you have hrt ?
Or hysterectomy I know it's the last resort but it sounds like you've got to that point
That's not my best friend had done
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Hi Louise you are like my mirror image exactly the same I feel exactly the same with exactly all those symptoms and feelings I am 51 and have two teenage boys I know I'm not the same anymore hate it I don't take anything except a multivitamin as I'm worried about side effects (health anxiety ) I feel for you but it's also good to know that I'm not alone sending love and hugs please keep in touch 😔😩xxx
Louise all I can see here is a lovely lady who has expressed her feelings and made her first step to do something about it. You are not ugly you are not fat . I know I can't see you but that doesn't matter. Your heart is pure and you are a strong lady to put on here the way you are feeling . Know there is others feeling exactly the same some a lot more suffering . Don't let mother nature win and come back fighting that's my moto . Life is too short and we are the strongest of the species . So let's all fight this . It will be hard sometimes . We are all in it together so let's help one another with remedies and hopefully will get through this love to you all x
Sorry to hear u are feeling like this. We are all here to help.I am feeling much the same to be honest I am post menopause and 58 .I can only explain how I feel by saying I have been taken over by aliens. I have put on so much weight feel fat and bloated all the time.I have lost all my spark and everything is a effort. I spend many nights awake till 3 in the morning restless and anxious. My body feels like I hAve been hit by a truck and I worry there is something terrible wrong with me .I have always had health anxiety but it's worse now. We can only try and embrace the good days and learn to love ourselves again . women have so much to do being wives mums daughter's and friends sometimes we need to step back and care for ourselves xxx
Louise, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Removal of uterus and ovaries brings it's sort of hell. You might consider seeming s doctor who would help you with HRT. Four years is a long time to not feel well.
You are not fat and you are not ugly! But I know it's hard to shake the feeling. I was four years post menopausal before I started having symptoms. I went from fearless and happy, without a care in the world to doom and gloom, health anxiety, scared worried mess. It will pass. Everyone is different and I think being thrown into it via hysterectomy makes it worse. But know we are hear for you.
Thank you for your reply im 55 now and have been in this hell since my surgery, immediately thrown into it at a rapid rate , im sorry you're suffering too . I feel like I'm dying I really do - my body feels like it's packing up and any minute now I'll have a heart attack through all the stress . I have plucked the courage up and made a doctors appointment for next week but don't know where to start ! Ive just changed surgerys due to my last doctor dishing out diazepam to shut me up - all it does is knock me out , he didn't care and didn't help me, im screaming out for something but don't know what. Im terrified xx
thank you yes I would consider HRT, I asked for it after my surgery but was told " oh you don't need it because you're 51 ( at the time ) and you'd go through it now anyway " ! Also I have terrible migraines and he told me I'd probably have a stroke - I wish I could have something , anything apart from diazepam to shut me up and wipe me out . This isn't living , it's a constant fight to keep going xx
hi , I was told because of my age and migraines I could have a Stroke so basically put up and shut up - was given diazepam which knocks me out . I have an appointment next week with a lady doctor but don't know where to start xx
Hi nanette, so sorry you have similar symptoms . Ive taken all the supplements , Feraglobin, cod liver oil, vit B, Menopace , everything and nothing helps so I gave up, plus I don't know what im doing because nobody helps me to make any decisions. Where to start and what to do, scared xx
thank you so much for reply but I feel bad , so bad I conquered my anxiety and made an appointment with a lady doctor for help, I can't go on like this - yes life is too short but at the same time this is no life it's an existance of dragging myself through each miserable day, same old same old - if I don't get help soon I feel like I will just collapse one day I feel so weak, im fighting to live and feel better - im not old but feel like I'm 100 and will keel over soon, sorry to moan - just want help xx
I think you do need it. It made a big difference to my life. If one doctor say's no. Go to one who will give this treatment to you. I am just starting out on my HRT journey. Trying to find the dose and type that suits me the best. The short few weeks I have been using it has made such a difference and I intend to use a small dose for life if possible...I believe it improves my symptoms enough to continue longterm use. I currently take Estradiol in a gel form.. I rub it on my arm first thing in the morning and it has improved my menopause symptoms considerably. I actually got mine while on holiday in Spain and I did not need a prescription, so I stocked up... I intend on looking into Bio identical HRT and will get all my bloods done at some stage..if something improves my menopause symptoms I'm going to take it.. You should def consider it..I am 48 years..look for a doctor near you that is more understanding to your needs.
Poor you, im the same - if I don't take diazepam im pacing the floor all night , now feel I can't manage without it . My doctor just wanted to shut me up and get rid of me and that's the truth. I wish I had good days but it's the same every day - if I go out anywhere I feel like I will collapse I feel so weak , im constantly checking myself for lumps and other symptoms because with all this stress something's bound to happen to me, it's all just so depressing - I feel castrated and ripped apart, there's nothing left, except another miserable day to look forward too xx
thank you for reply, yes I would have HRT , was told no due to migraines . Four years of dragging myself through hell day after day and then a diazepam to knock me out at night to wake and face another day of misery is no life. Ive tried every supplement on the market and nothing helps, nothing - it's oestrogen I need so why can't I have it, is there another reason apart from the migraines I wonder - oh I don't know what to do xx
bless you for your kind words but I don't believe I will ever feel better without help, 4 years and no improvement proves to me that this is how im going to be until I die , im so sorry you have similar symptoms it's just rubbish - I'd do anything to have my life back xx
Look for a physician who will at least give you a trial of HRT. There are plenty out there.
Hi Louise,
You have basically described all of he symptoms I had! Please don't despair, I will tell you that it does get better. I still do have some symptoms but they have lessened considerably and the episodes are coming further apart.
I am 56 and I guess my major issues started about 4 years ago with generalized fatigue and often crashing fatigue, anxiety (especially health anxiety), chest tightness, lightheadedness and feeling like I was going to pass out, doom and gloom thoughts about the future, spacey head and disconnected feelings, just plain worn out. My most severe and debilitating problem was with gastric issues which started about 3 years ago. I battled with burning in my stomach, and just a feeling of uncomfortableness in my stomach all the time with some acid reflux. I couldn't eat anything without my stomach flaring up. It would be ok for about a week and then for the next few weeks back to the problems. This was what made me want to give up the most. I lost weight and became depressed and even more anxious which caused the stomach issues to worsen and my chest tightness to get worse. I had every cardiac test done, including a CT scan of my heart with dye...all were normal. I also had colonoscopy and endoscopy which were normal except for showing chronic gastritis in my stomach.
Also, 2 years ago I had partial hysterectomy with uterus, Fallopian tubes and cervix removed. My ovaries were healthy and zero history of gynecological cancer in myself or my family. Well I was ok for about 8 months and then I swear I could literally feel my ovaries failing and my symptoms got much worse...adding hot flashes through the night to the mix. Saw my gynecologist a few months ago and had blood work done which proved I was now in menopause with estradiol level 6.3, FSH 80.8. I am also not a candidate for HRT because I have had hypertension since age of 25. My doc said that HRT makes the red blood cells sticky and thus I would be more prone to clots and stroke.
I know this is a long post....but what im getting at is....suddenly, about a month and a half ago...my symptoms have decreased dramatically! I am feeling more energetic, my gastric issues have decreased by about 70%, my anxiety has decreased and I feel more grounded. I still have some days of fatigue. I still have to take Ativan 0.5mg to help me sleep and I still wake up a few times during the night with hot flashes but there are nights that it's not so bad. I take a good, natural multivitamin for women over 50, CoQ10, Fish Oil, Vitamin D3, extra B12, Tumeric in capsule form and I get magnesium and calcium in med I take most nights to prevent reflux while I sleep. Exercise is key too...even though we don't feel like it most times. I try to push myself...but I am lacking here. Even if I just do some stair stepping each day I think it helps. I try not to worry about the future ( my husband is 18 years older than me and my only child passed away 10 years ago). The only thing worrying about the future does is to prevent me from enjoying the present.
Again, I apologize for this long post but I want you to know that there is hope and a light at the end of the tunnel. I know it's hard to think that when our bodies are feeling so miserable and beaten down. Hang in there and I promise it will get better! I hope you can get some help from your doctor.
Hugs.🙂