Ughhhhhh. Just to start off with haha.
Increased anxiety the past two weeks has had my HR all up there. I have my appointment at 330 today to discuss it with my doctor.. I'm hoping they just say its anxiety and I should be back on meds.. But in my mindset, I'm getting ready for my life to be changed forever.. They're going to tell me after all the tests I've had, that I still have some underlying heart disorder that will have me living and feeling like this for the rest of my life..
I keep telling myself "they said tests are fine.. They said all tests in the past 9 months have been fine", but it isn't working today. Short of breath, shallow breathing is the anxiety attack of choice today I guess.. I just need some reassurance from people that understand that they will most likely tell me its anxiety..
I'm asking for clonazepam today. Personally at this point id like to just have an IV attached permanently to me giving me a constant dose of Xanax but. I'm guessing they can't do that haha!
Good luck today. See what the doctor has to say and let the doctor speak fully without interuptions. I know you want certain meds but allow the doctor to guide you. They see this daily and are well aware of what seems to work out best just from their own patients. Whatever is said to you, you know this anxiety. Even having a ailment should not cause such heightened kevel or fear. It is anxiety either way. What a beast of an disorder we all have, the mind games it plays its just unbelievable.
Definitely.. Its so frustrating when you know what's wrong and you know exactly how to change it, but at the same time you mentally and physically can't force yourself to do it.. Once I'm in front of the doctor I should calm down.. I get so panicky they usually end up sitting next to me and holding my hand.. It gets awkward sometimes when I have to ask them to hold my hand while they talk haha
You are so sweet!!! I have never asked them to hold my hand but i just painted a picture of that in my mind. All i can say is i how the visit goes well and this all gets figured out for you. You probably win iver the hearts of most of the doctors you see. Once they hold your hand and start talking ..you have touched their heart. All i can say is that might just be the sweetest thing i ever read.
Well came in and told me my HR was 116 and then they said they're putting me on a 24 HR holter and she wants an echo and thyroid done.. I had hopes of coming here and knowing it would for sure be ok and just anxiety.. Now I'm scared again.. She said if its normal, she's just going to aggressively work on this anxiety to get it gone. Starting on buspar also.
At least you will have your amswers soon. Do t be scared. Thyroid stuff is fixable. And the holter monitor is very standard cardio care. And youll get the result rather fast after you return the monitor.