Hello everyone.
So I have quite a long history of anxiety, panic attacks and OCD (in the form of anxious thoughts)
I went through panic attacks during my school life and late teens, I don't have many panic attacks anymore but I sill suffer from crippling anxiety a lot of the time.
My biggest thing is that I can't go anywhere without being completely beside myself that I'm gonna need to go to the toilet.
As soon as I go anywhere I'll start worrying then get a twinge in my tummy or an unsettled feeling and I'll feel like I'm literally 2 minutes away from pooing myself - sounds horrible but it's literally all I think about lately..
before I go anywhere now I'll take Imodium cause otherwise I can't cope and if I have an event or a day out to attend I was immediately worry in the dad leading up to it about needing the toilet at inconvenient times or messing myself in front of people. This has never happened, but I've had to literally sprint to a toilet many many times and I'll also go about 10 times before I leave the house.
I can feel the anxiety in my stomach, churning away every time I think about it, i just can't go anywhere at the moment without it being at the front of my mind.
I've been really good at getting through my anxiety in the past but this is really getting to me, I just want to be normal!
Any advice would be great. I've had a course of CBT about 2 years ago for anxiety and OCD which helped, but I just can't kick this obsession.