I don't know if this is even an anxiety thing or its completely normal. I don't get overwhelming feelings of anxiety. But whenever it comes to meeting new people I just can't force myself through with it. Online Dates/ meetup groups/joining a club/parties/even meeting someone on eBay. It seldom happens with other stuff too especially when I don't know the person very well. In the week leading up to the event I feel good about it but nearly always the day before or on the day I make some excuse not to go. I have one friend and I'm desperate to gain more. I can't stick to any new hobby either I usually get bored of things quickly or give up. As a result I spend large amounts of time doing nothing. I've sort of given up on getting a girlfriend because I can't force myself through with a date. I feel pathetic because I don't get worried or get any particular anxiety symptoms I just can't motivate myself to go through with it. I don't know if this is an anxiety thing because I don't even know what goes through my mind at the time. I just lose the urge to go. It's holding me back in life and makes me feel worthless. Any idea why this could be happening? Like I said I don't know if it's anxiety but it seemed the most appropriate place to post this. I don't have many anxiety symptoms apart from this. I feel pretty worthless most of the time. I feel like I lost my personality and I've been diagnosed with bipolar NOS because of my manic episodes but this probably frustrates me the most. I hate feeling like I can't do something that's meant to be simple
what meds are you on?
I'm on paliperidone which is an antipsychotic but that's it