Trying to come off sertraline , need positive feed back

Mental health
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Since taking 20mg dose (once) in September 2015 that was prescribed by my dr at the time for what she thought was depression  ( I was not depressed at all) my body reacted so badly to it, I had the worst panic attack of my life. Went to a&e thought I wasn't in this world was sick went pale anxious is an understatement. I did not take another dose. Now the reason I'm on sertraline is because that panic attack never ever went away or even eased off , then I developed depression , so bad that I lost 2 stone in weight and I was at the point of suicide complete despair. This one dose ruined my life.

Eventually after a month of thinking il get better soon I couldn't cope anymore I went back to a different dr this time. She said I needed to take sertraline 50mg.

I was way too scared as seeing what one SSRI did to me I had  a massive fear of taking anything let alone another SSRI I started with the help of good friends on a quarter of the tablet for a week then half for a week then the whole lot, well I felt worse more suicidal more crazy intrusive thoughts no sleep at all no eating at all. After 5 weeks I started to feel my self improve. Here I am 2 years later , very well and a lot fatter but hay at least I'm. Not wanting to die. Sleep is usually very good I feel me again. 

Now I want to come off but I've not read one storey anywhere with positive outcomes if comeing off. It's been almost a year since I cut from 50mg to 25 mg. now I do skip a few days here and their usually a Friday and a Monday and once during the week. I cut out an extra day. And I had dizziness and insomnia , could not sleep at all , so started not missing days, and sleep came back thank god. 

Now what tho I feel stuck , I want to come off but I'm so scared of relapse or bad withdrawals . 😔. I need to come off because my Waight is plugging and I feel better and don't want to rely on them anymore. 

Plz any advice guys.

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Worrying about it will not help. In fact probably make it worse. I would express your concerns to your doctor. Come up with a plan to drop you off the meds slowly. And monitor your mood and sleep habits. See if she will give you a script for xanex or kalonipin for just in case you have panic attack while coming off the other meds. 

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Hi lattifa7777

We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.

If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.

Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.

If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.

Kindest regards

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Hi the dosage you are on is not a therapeutic dose so you are really getting no benefit from the drug.If l were you l would miss one dose a well sit on that for a couple of weeks .Then miss 2doses sit on that for a couple of weeks then continue until you are off them.That should keep withdrawal symptoms to a minimum or you won't get any.l have known people to come off sertraline with very few problems.Just take it slow.