Trying to move Forward

So I've been suffering with depression for over 3 years ever since I had my first child, and my anxiety started a year ago. All this time I've kept it in and and not found the courage to see a doctor. But now I've realised its really affecting me and it's effecting how I am with my kids (snappy and impatient). So yesterday I finally made a doctors appointment. It's not for another 13 days but it's a start. May sound silly but it's a massive step for me as I know I need the help and this isn't gonna go away on its own.

Good! It's great that your taking this step. Do you know why you've been having depression/anxiety for so long?

You've done the best thing, I'm the same with my children but they do push u at times lol .I was embarrassed when I found what I had, I told no 1 for years . I've always been a strong minded person and never worried about nothing, how I miss that person

Why did you wait so long out of interest? If you broke your leg you wouldn't put it off. You only get one body and life so look after yourself

Congrats on getting help. Uphill from here

What percentage of people actually no of this because it's one thing I've never been able to answer

I just thought it would go away I guess. Like one day I'd wake up fine or maybe I was just in denial I don't know. Finally realised now though and hopefully it will be upwards and onwards from here!

Yes the kids really do push my limits lol but I think it's because of them I've finally realised I need help. Want to give the best and all of me to them rather than the half hearted me I'm giving at the minute. Hopefully we will be the people we once were!

I think my depression started once I had my little boy so guessing postnatal depression. I was only 18 and found it hard and was too scared to tell anyone. Then the anxiety set in. My mum died when I was 12 (nearly 10 years ago) and even though it was a while ago I believe it all stems from that also.

Yes it will be! You've had some heavy baggage on you since you were young, so it's understandable that's it become this. But seeing a psychiatrist and maybe getting on the right medication will definitely help you recover from this! Stay strong

I really hope you can be what u were Sarah but I've been like this from 19 I'm now 35 so just have to settle for the person I am now

Some people's anxiety/depression is triggered by something that's happened in their life. My anxiety randomly started one day, but most people I've talked to have had some sort of a trigger.

Wouldn't say I had the best up bringing but I just got on with life and from the age of 8 I was fine then at 19 sittin at work I just started shaking sweating real bad and couldn't breath but still couldn't say for definite what it is that's got me the way I am

What are the symptoms of your anxiety?

And you know ehy youre anxious?

My symtoms are; brain fog, tension headaches, aches and pains, feeling like I might pass out, breathlessness. There's lots I haven't mentioned but they change all the time. Like sometimes it can be heart pain other days completely different. I don't know what started it off really. I've always been a little anxious but one night last year I was in bed and all of a sudden felt like I couldn't breathe and then had a panic attack and haven't been the same since then.

That's how mine started, no trigger at all! Have you been following your normal schedule?

Yep I normally stick to the same schedule everyday give or take a day. When it started last year it was really bad but I also think I've started to realise this is anxiety and even though it's with me most days it's more bareable in a way as I tell myself it's just the anxiety doing all this.

But I dont believe there is specific trigger in object or time, the angst is just there, brewing, waiting to come out..;-)

For julian it might have been months or years of studying and the pressure of exams..

For Sarah not sure, so tired didnt read it all..

For me its my best friend leaving tge UK, my job instability and dull love life for years.. And suddenly, a few months after my friend was gone, it happened!

That's a great first step! The more I accepted it as just my anxiety the mor bearable it became. Keep staying strong and occasionally embrace the anxiety letting yoursefl know it can't really hurt you it only pretends to.