All I see is visual destruction, I loathe people, loathe my job, worried about paying bills and struggle to leave my house, and feel sick all the time, these change within minutes though, I'm struggling to cope with everything and I'm at a loss as to who or what can help. I've never used a thing like this before and I'm hoping for something/anything
What other symptoms do you have? I found some unofficial symptoms of depression which were really interesting, google them. I'm not a MH professional but I've beem through anxiety and agoraphobia. Also, Ive just watched my husband press the self destruct button on our marriage, our home which we are now about to lose and his job, we dont know if he's walked out of the job or been sacked. At least you know there is somehtng not right, please don't do what my husband has done we have all tried to support him and been left devastated. Take care.
Thanks jackie, I'm just angry all the time. I know people are worse off than me which makes me feel worse, I know that things need to change, and I'm the one that has to change it just don't know how, which makes me worse, i just feel lost, have done for months now
There's nothing wrong with feeling angry, I get angry too it's a normal emotion for all of us. There are people who are worse off than myself too, I've been through a really tough time lately but have cried when other people have told me their problems. Well you've made a massive start knowing and recognising you need to do something, believe me that's a major step towards helping yourself. Do you have anyone you could confide in or talk to about how you are feeling?
Have you ever heard the saying that "most people live lives of quiet desperation"? Someone famous said that. You are struggling, but you are still functioning. You are seeing people, working, paying your bills, etc. You have taken a major step in the right direction by posting on this forum. Before you slip further off track, talk to someone who can help. Where do you go when you need a doctor? Go there and explain how you are feeling. Start turning this around now. Don't wait. I am so sorry that you are in this frame of mind. You don't have to live this way.
well done for taking a step like posting on a site such as this. You want help, help is out there. What help you choose to accept or go for is up to you and it will take time and there will be ups and downs. People deal with situations in very different ways and take the time they need. The best advise i can give, is dont deal with your problems alone, whether it be a friend, family, doctor or someone here, use those individuals as a sounding board for your problems. Talking is key. In time you will come to your own realisation on what the root of the problems are or if none can be found, with the help of a doctor find a cause for those thoughts. Have a think about what stage you're at, are you ready for the next step in improving your life, and importantly, have you seen a doctor yet? I wish you all the best 
hey pablo You sound a bit down. Have you talked to someone like a Dr to see what he thinks. Maybe that will help you in the long run.
Richard