Good Morning Tina and it is another day.
I just wanted to say that we are all proud of you in the way you are (belive me you are!) coping with your loss and it is obvious the love you have for your husband is as true and strong as ever. You obviously do not feel you are coping yet, but we hear and feel your pain and are here for you to help.
By the way, we have met you, but we have not been introduced to your husband and I think that would be nice as we are all your friends after all.
Do you know, it took me 57 years to find true love, my "splitapart", Ann. I was at the point where I could hear the bell of the monestary calling and wondering where I would need to go to be measured for a habit! Seriously though, I do envy those of you who found it sooner, have so many memories to cherish. I can only hope and pray I am Blessed with time.
You can share these memories by going and spending time with your Mum, have a cuddle tell her how you feel, after all you're still her little girl. Don't forget your Sister and your own Family. I have a, sadly, estranged daughter from my only marriage 35 years ago and a grand daughter I have never met, I have another daughter who has just started big school, is my techno teacher and (more recently) my fashion advisor, which means now I have two!!! Your Family need to know what is happening, how to start to help you and how to move forward together. I wish I could (not with your Family! Although, they sound really nice) I mean with my parents. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them. How do I cope? Well, Tara touched on something which I endorse and recommend as it has helped me and I have introduced to so many others. At least once a year I write a letter to my parents bringing them up to date with things in case they missed anything looking over us and I tell them how much I love them. I write to my estranged daughter just letting her know I am still here if she ever needs me and I miss her and would dearly love to meet her Family too. I also write to other Family members and friends who are separated by distance or time. I light a small fire, safely in an appropriate receptical (how health and safety we have become!) and place the letters in it one by one and watch the message in turn, turn to smoke and rise up into the night sky. I do believe (without getting too weird on you or any others here) that the message goes up and out there, it is recieved and that is a great comfort when you cannot touch or hold someone you truly love. Try it Tina it can do no harm (as long as you keep well away from next doors fence of course!).
Re yesterday, a day we don't need to be told to show our love for someone as those of us that have found true love loving them every moment of every second, try and look at it as a celebration of your and (?) love for each other. Maybe, that is one of the days a year you write him?
Well, I have blathered on a fair bit again and I know there are insomniacs out there that appreciate my writings!
Got to go stain the front fence before the rain returns!
Look forward to hearing from you Tina either directly or indirectly.
Take care,
David
