I’ve struggled with pure O ocd for a very long time. Ever since I was a child. When I was little I was a very sexual child for some reason. I liked to be the man when playing house becuase I felt so powerful. I am now freaking out about that feeling of power I used to love as a child. I know I am much more powerful than a child and I’m afraid that I would touch a child or something. I know I wouldn’t do that but I can’t stop having these awful intrusive thoughts. I had a dream the other day that I thought a young girls bare ass was sexy. I don’t want to think that. Why would I think that???? the things I used to “like” when I was little (like being powerful) makes me feel like I’m a pedophile or something. makes me feel like I could do that again.. nothing helps me get past these thoughts anymore. I constantly try to reassure myself that I’d never do that causing me to think about it more. What can I do to stop this? I hate it so much
It sounds like you need to see a psychiatrist before something does happen.
I do see one. it’s just ocd and not something I would act on. intrusive thoughts.
Sorry Samantha but personally I feel that's a really unhelpful and negative response which will feed this worry more. If you have stood awareness and knowledge of OCD, one of the disorders most common 'intrusive thoughts' are sexual thoughts occuring about someone or something you don't want including family members or children. It's part of having OCD. These thoughts absolutely DO NOT mean the person would ever act on them or are harmful or in this case a "paedophile" and to imply so is very wrong. Miranda, I am diagnosed with OCD and I work in medicine, this is a classic intrusive thought of the disorder, it in no way means this is what you really feel or would ever act on it. If you are not currently seeing a doctor or therapist then I would see if you can, but many great sites like Mind can help confirm this is normal and can offer advice and support.
Thank you so much very nice to hear that it’s normal, I will definitely look into that
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