Very sensitive to environments, why?

Mental health
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Hello everyone,

First off, I realize this is gonna sound really strange because it doesn't even make sense to me, but from the time I was 15 years old, I've always had this extreme sensitivity to places for no reason. For example, when I was 15 I went to a church camp (I had been there before) and out of nowhere I had this really weird feeling and felt a huge wave of anxiety coming over me and ended up throwing up. Nothing to do with what was actually going on, just the place itself. I know it sounds so weird! And luckily I haven't had another one of those episodes for quite a few years, I would still get anxious at certain places, but not to that extreme. Well, I work for a group home for special needs adults and one of the houses they recently sent me to gave me the exact same feeling and I've been obsessing about it since. It's weird because I've been there once before and remember thinking to myself, I don't like the way this house is, but I got over it and was fine, but this time when I went, it felt so weird. Like after a few minutes of being there, I just wanted to get out and never go back. I've been obsessing about it for the past two days and I can barely eat without vomiting because I get such high anxiety when thinking about it. I have even been suicidal when these feelings start because it honestly just feels so bad and I have cried multiple times over this. I haven't ever talked to anyone about it, because how do you explain to someone you're feeling really depressed and anxious because you didn't like the way a building looked?! 

This was very hard for me to type cause I really feel like it just doesn't make sense, but if anyone has felt similar or if there is a name for this please let me know. Maybe it really is just a part of anxiety and depression but it's awful. 

Thank you in advance 

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Anxiety is a terrible thing and so complex that there are literally hundreds of symptoms that are unexplainable but yet feel so real and scary.  I have had anxiety for about 5 years and seems relentless. I too have walked into stores and have had the weirdest feelings that I feel palpitations and pressure that goes to my head and causes panic attacks. It also bothers me when I drive. I have felt defeated a lot. If I do anything I am going to suffer and feel miserable! It’s a terrible thing! Sorry you have to deal with it! 

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Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate you taking the time to comment back! So sorry you've had to deal with this too. Someone had said maybe try therapy to see whats causing my fears. It's weird because even though I know they're ridiculous and irritational, I'll still obsess about it and can't stop. For example, when I drive by the work house I talked about earlier, I'll get this really strange sick feeling, like I never wanna go back and it makes no sense because there's no reason for it! It makes me even more depressed and I feel like I'm going crazy when it happens. I hope it gets better for you!