Hello,
Am on week 4 of citalopram 20mg now - got passed all the nasty side effects .. I seem to be feeling very up right now which is strange ... I am surviving on about 2 hours sleep a night and do not feel tired at all - and have crazy amounts of energy ...
Have made alot of impulsive decisions over the last few days (e.g. leaving uni to work full time) and have strange urges to shoplift etc ( so far I have managed to control myself but I have had to leave shops abruptly just so I know I wouldnt do it ...) - I am very chatty and find it difficult to stop talking at times :S
Am enjoying this heightened state of mood as it is a change to depression but am starting to become concerned - especially with the lack of sleep etc? Is this a later side effect of citalopram or is it an indicator of something more serious?
Cheers
Gosh -Stevie 42-Yes, I understand. I think , ( I hope its a side effect) But it could just be apart of you( dont worry) though, and I dont mean that in a bad way. Look, if you do end up shoplifting-watch out for the cctv cameras and the mirrors-its amazing now how they can catch you( whoops, did I just write that :shock: ) see, pretty much the same as what you have said.The fact you identify it though is a HUGE thing! Doesnt it? Love to talk more, stay strong.
Sleeplessness is a very common side effect of Citalpopram, as are many other things. The main thing is to discuss any effects with your GP. Change of dosage or medication might be indicated. Don't just accept what happens - look for help and advice.
Hi Stevie. Hope your still feeling upbeat. Is it that you feel happy, you can quietly laugh about things-yet, feel out of control at the same time, which send fear into you and that makes you anxious?
I was doing ok-thought I know, Ill have a day off of them-that is citalopram. had one day off, keep thinking about what my stepmum said. Got the children to help with the house chores, but my stomach is in knots and I feel like i cant cope. I feel like im going to crack. I know its just my situation( I hope it is anyway) This is the thing, my worry, what if i get out, and im stil miserable. Mind you that does not mean im not going to try. Im going to not ween myself off just yet, maybe wait for a docotor to tell me to do that. And sorry for the shoplifting coment. Ive not shoplifted but yes I have stood and looked at things....and thought about it with my heart pounding and me thinking \"Just do it: but if you saw me, and knew what I was like, you would know that if I were to do something like that , I would be the first to get caught. i didnt mean it to sound as it did ( that previous coment) god , Im rubbish at explaining what I mean. Anyway, I am away to enjoy sock heel now. Yes, I have more than 150 odd socks to find partners too. I think its a symbol of my relationship :lol:
Anyway, chin up, sometimes just coming here to let it out helps, ......oh thta renminds me. If i showed my docotr my diary I think hed section me for a sociopathic diisorder. :roll:
When I got citalopram they told me to talk to the doctor if there were any signs of mania or manic behaviour.
Hey all, its me-the attention seeking mental head case-how are you all? well, this morning I lost it completely. id had enough last night, I just sat and weither stared into space or slept. i felt there was no point, This morning I got up , and went mental at him. hes going to get what he wants, Im moving out, and as this is the childrens home, he gets his own way. You should hear the way he says \"You move out\". I asked him:what is it-do you think its love to watch people panic and throw up all the time??\" His response-- \"yes, I do think its love\"...then when the in the kitchen and no children are about....he mumbles in my ear\"remeber to clean up!\". Im stuck between running off to womans aid for a night cap, jumping off a very high bridge, as he will always beat me, or I dont know. This is the thing, ll those that say I should just get some balls and so on, they have no idea how manipulative this thing can be-right now, filling out ridiculous application from. I wonder why it is others around me manage it, nice house, mortgage, they can drive, pretty and so on m, and then theres me, a total looney failure with nothing but roots a fat beeli and oh yeaj I forgot to mention my wine problem. Even though we are sperated legally , he denies it. anyway, this is only a rant i want act on it, i just hate this. i told him not to touch my stuff, ie the furniture the couch etc, he stood , and jumped up and down on my mums couch like a big child. Honestly as theres no escape I want a serious illness i WANT TO BE ILL so that i dont have to face this and my childrens loss is a natural one so they can deal with it better.
Soneone change the law!!!!!!!!!!!
Womans aid is shut on a Sunday!!!!!!
These people are manipulators and if I get murdered , it will be on a Sunday!!!!!
Well. sorry about yesterday!!!! Got through to womans aid after a very tearful moment. The other lady helped me through some-then burst sobbing. The went shopping. Followed by watching Kramer vs Kramer. Anyway, going to ring for a doctors appointment as still feeling crabbie! Hope you are all doing ok! I cant wait till the day I can say to everyone-what? What was that?
Really think you should get professional help, explain to the doctor everything and def show the diary, believe me there is nothing that you can say that will shock or suprise a good GP.
You will feel better & the kids will love getting their mum back !!!!!
You need help. You really need help. Is there no professional you can approach? There's no way you should have to suffer this.
Hey bad girl,
Hope you are feeling better, please make sure you talk to someone or at least post a message.
Take care & stay safe 
hiya just read your comments i feel like im going the mill glad im not the only one i used to be married to a monster mentally phycsically and sexually abused couldnt go anywhere out the house he had to control me and i thiught that was normal i was with it for 13 years before i had the courage to leave him but now im suffering docs say ive got too much baggage but i cant let it go im taking 60 mgs citalopran a day plus zopiclone at night still dont sleep for longer than about 3 hours im gonna be started on chomipramine nxt week hope that will get rid of these morbid thoughts ive tried nearlly all kinds of deppresants nothing i was o60mgs of paroxatine for about 6 yrs they didnt help im a driver but im too frightened to get behind the wheel got no confidence anymore nothing seems normal to me nowadays sorry for yakking about myself so much
Hey skitzy. I understand. Im coming up to the 13 year mark myself. Still stuck. Im really down as heknows my triggers and I get so annoyed that I get a lump in my throat and gag, like im about to throw up. Sometimes I preferred it when he hit me-as it marked and it felt better about crying out about it.
Do you have children? I have 2 lovely girls -and I dont know where we are going to be form one day to the next.
Im scared of the damage its caused them . i know it does as I came from a broken home, and the way my mum and dad were with us and still are makes life even more awkward-sorry that speil made me go really dizzy.
Ive been drinking for some time too and next week start antabuse -Im so scared that this want really help my allready shady status. Anyway, i dont want to waffle on. I hop eyou are all right or as you can be. have you ben told that you probably have ptsd die to battered hoouswives syndrome? thats what it sounds like tome. certains things stick in your head that overwhlem you and traumatise you and you cant get past them , in fact when a lampost seems more affectionate. You know you have problems ( sorry thats my joke to myslef-i keep loosing it -amy balance, and its not due to drinking so much now. So scaredof the future but want to break away /run away as fast as I can from the past!! Hugs to you, and take care.
hiya bad girl i drink too ive got a lovely husband now and i dont know how he copes with me must love me eeh i have 3 kids my eldest is 33 she is on drugs i have her middle child living with me since he was 2 i am now 49 so it feels like i am starting again i love im to bits but it isnt easy she is on every drug that she can can get hold of and still blames me for the way she is my 2nd husband has taken all 3 of my kids on and is such a lovely man but i still cant let go of the past
hiya bad girl i drink too ive got a lovely husband now and i dont know how he copes with me must love me eeh i have 3 kids my eldest is 33 she is on drugs i have her middle child living with me since he was 2 i am now 49 so it feels like i am starting again i love im to bits but it isnt easy she is on every drug that she can can get hold of and still blames me for the way she is my 2nd husband has taken all 3 of my kids on and is such a lovely man but i still cant let go of the past
Hiya Skitzy-wow-3 children!
I am the very same age as your daughter on drugs. i take this stuff and drink wine/thats my lot-dreading next week though-more meds to deal with and not being allowed the freedom to take a wee glass of vino-doesnt sound like fun. I hope you manage to get your daughter better. Its hard I understand-the more you try and help the more she probably thinks she is being judgedWhat drugs does she take -do you know?
Im at Uni today-Im due some results and so far been up since 5 am ( worried) and have to get the 7ish bus. Also aranged a funding meeting. Im trying to move on. I say to myself\"that was then and this is now\"( trying to be less harsh so that I dont get out the torture tools,, beat myself up about it all then drink.
Its eay to have those memories pop back in and it drives you to fear-for me more like a startled bunny rabbit-it makes it really difficult to trust even if a person is especially great.
Im now just sad, as I am ashamed of what I have become. the truth hurts! sometimes I find it hard to see the truth and things are mish mashed.My ex never exactly thought I was very good looking and when I see scars on my face I just want to rip bits off, Often this is worsened by otheres when things are said\"lIts obvious you dont care how you look\". Im have blind ( not quite) but I do care very much-I hust cant put make up on full stop. Anyway, Hope Ive not upset you. I have a new find to relieve all...Call it dypraxic whatever-but I like to go into the pet shop and talk to the floppy eared bunnies. theres 5 all snuggled up with their noses twitching. I dont know why but I love watching them. take care of you Nicky and try and relax. give the 2 year old a hug. Ooo I forgot to mention I managed to buy a microwave and put my lavender teddy in it at night,Ive been sleeping at least 5 hours a night-good move huh-and ex detests the thing, Girls think it s the best and enjoy their hot mil and cereal. take care!
Hey badgirl and skitzy
I wish you both the best of luck and hope everything improves for you very soon!!
a quick update to my recent post: I have spoken with a close friend who told me she had bipolar disorder - and she said I had been experiencing hypomanic symptoms ... So I went to the GP - and she upped my dose of Citalopram - saying it wasn't hypomania it was me being frustrated because Citalopram has helped me 'see the light' and I am not there all the time... Nevertheless I dont want to stop taking Citalopram as it has helped me so much over the last few months ... not there yet but well on the way ... and if it turns out I do have bipolar (i have been refered to a psychiatrist and a counsellor just incase) thats something I will be comfortable dealing with when the diagnosis is made...
Hope everyone is well and best of luck to you all
x
Hi Stecie 42-do you feel better that you have this/or will have this diagnosed?
Im on cloud cuckoo 9 land. i got a good pass :shock: :lol: Mum had to read the results out to me. I must say from thinking id get 30 percent ish-im pleased considering its been 11 or so yuears and the system has changed so much. I missed an a by 4 percent but considering i thought it would be a big fat F, im delighted!!!! theres hope fr me yet ( Thank goodness I didnt mess up!) Its no great biggie and want change my life much right now-but I see a cloud with a silver linning ( brag brag!)
Skitzy-how are you doing?
Im exhausted and just found out so sorry for the hysteria. But I didnt reference my resources properly so I was worrried
Still not sure about next weeks decisoin-it feels a bit odd, that I for one only have the ocassional bottle, and watch my ex ( oh who cares) im not snitching -or have I? Dont think so. Anyway, I so want to go celebrate., but cant!
take care everyone. hugsx.
I dont know-I made a noise last night. But now regretting it!!! Ex asked what was going on-pff-told him...he replied well most people think 80 percent is good, not below! whistle it away ....anyway..im off now to take supportirve daughter to the sick kiddies as she hasnt put her foot down on the ground for nearly a week.
Well my up didnt last for long.
Daughters fot is just fine
Dont know I was dancing for some tim eand my sore foot is throbbing.Plus not in the mood to do anything at all-I dont feel sorry for myself /tearful or anything. I feel sort of ok, like I can cope ok -I dont know if its being back at college or what....when I go there the stairs remind me of so many things...I even had a dream -so vivid that iwas was wobbiling about the streets, struggling to cross a road, and my partner was willing me on and giving me thumbs up once Id crossed the road.....That reality just doesnt happen-wish I could go back to sleep!
Anyway, stevie 42 and skitzy, hope you 2 are ok ( or as can be). Im not wanting to go through to next week. Im to satrt antabuse_ id not even think my drinking qualifies it...God Im so tempted to get mega mega mega drunk so that I can look in the mirror and say \"what an alky!\" and deserve the stuff. I know lots of people that drink so why do I have to do this....I dont get anythign either...i think its a bit sick ( if you ask me) i know that this is supposed to help me quit-but its like this...when the dentists says\"stop drinking coke, its bad for you and it gives you plaque\" Im this, plaque....sugar....hmmmm ....and then drink more. if someone would just say fruit is really bad for you and addicitive, Im sure Id be allright!!!!