Like you it wasn't the pain of the smears, I think it was a sort of feeling of being violated. After I'd practiced inserting the speculum at home for the first few smears I would ask the nurse if I could put it in myself. They were generally quite happy, after all, it made their life easier than having to fight me lol. I reckon using this mix of ploys you will have no probs in the future, just got to get by this blip first. Good luck, don't worry too much about the speed of the appointment, you want to get on with things now.