Hello Caron, I assume you are talking about my post to Ose this morning. I have previously sent several post to several people because I have been on this page for a over a week now. If you can retrace some of them, it will tell you more about my struggles. Please read the ones I have exchanged with Sheena and Amanda.
Yes I did go CT. The only "withdrawal" symptoms as such was the immediate return of my insomnia!
Basically, I was on Amitriptyline for 5 years for what I would describe as severe insomnia (I stopped taking it a week ago today). Doctors think I exaggerate when I say "severe" or "chronic". They prefer to have the privilege of their own diagnosis or assessment of your symptoms."Trust me, I am a doctor. You are neither ill nor suffering. You are just a time waster, a hyponchondriac, an attention seeker etc..."
s not sleeping more than two hours a night and then feeling rotten all day, falling into depression, and spending most of your time trying not to sleep randomly and irresistibly during the day "severe" enough? During my time as a teacher I remember falling asleep at least on two occasions in the middle of a lesson... while sitting at my desk!!!! (thankfully not standing up!!!!). That's what happens to some long-distance lorry drivers at the wheel... with lethal consequences.
I would say insomnia is an illness like any other, and one that impacts and blights your life at every level!
I so understand your anxiety and other related symptoms.
All I can tell you is how I reacted to Amit. It is no indication of how you might react.
Yes, it was wonderful at first because I slept like a log, and after the inital drowsyness during the day, I got used to the med and the drowsiness disappeared, giving way to a wonderful feeling of well-being, wellness, clarity of mind etc... But gradually I started noticing I was putting on weight. Weight and dieting had never been an issue in my life. I was always very slim -effortlessly, and being naturally frugal with no "sweet tooth" or other indulgences.
Worse still when I became hungry on Amit it was not in a normal way. I would experience severe drops of sugar levels which, even after I scoffed two doughtnuts would affect me for several hours or, frankly ruin the rest of my day. I called them "hypo episodes". Again, after going backwards and forwards to my doc with this new symptom, he didn't take it seriously, putting weight gain down to age!!!! And sugar cravings and hypos to a figment of my imagination!!!! Adivising me to watch what I ate etc... a "balanced diet", as they say, and take up exercise and a new challenging activity to take my mind off it and by way of "self-help" etc... In other words stating the obvious and thereby, Insulting people's intelligence!
No one would understand that my need to it sugary foods and having hypos, it was both real and very bad for me. Like being on an overdose of insulin.
Blood tests showed normal sugar levels though, but I was sure that I had developped a sugar addiction, brought on by Amit and that what I was experiencing (the "hypos"
was no more than withdrawal symptoms of sugar. Like and addict, I needed my shot every two to three hours. With no control over it!
The weight rocketed, the hypos got worse and I had no choice in th end but to discontinue the Amit.
Insomnia immediately returned but I was right about the sugar addiction and the weight. Even on the first day offI lost my appetite and any desire for sweet foods. Result: have already lost 2 kilos (8 more to go!). But the insomnia is killing me! I have become a bit of an invalid and a reclusive. Is this how I am going to spend the rest of my days.... obssessing about sleep??? and suffering the effects of sleep deprivation???
I have so lost confidence in the medical profession. I can't be bothered to go back to the doc. I am looking for other remedies (natural ones?) but i have already tried those unsuccessfully in the past, including melatonin (available only on the internet).
Dr Michael Mosley did a programme on insomnia last night (BBC 2, 9pm). He is very good and I am going to explore his findings for myself. Programmes like that are bringing the subject into public awareness and making it a real issue, worth taking seriously, quantifying and researching scientifically. So there is hope for the future generations.
Please don't let my account deter you from going ahead with Amit. Ose seems to be doing well on it. Many other people do too.
By the way, I found that Nytol was very quickly ineffective as a sleep aid and was also causing me anxiety, such as you describe, after using it.
Sorry this is so long. Please do look up the Dr Michael Mosley programme as it dignifies sufferers and gives hope.
This forum too is good for the morale and for the various tips people give you, and, more particularly, because you realise you are not alone. Thousands out there are havind the same struggles as yourself. It is like having a support group of like-minded sufferers! So, I hope you too will find the forum helpful.
For me it gives me the chance to bang on about it (getting all my anger and frustrations off my chest), with impunity. I hope what I writes helps others too. Let me know all of you!!!
All the best with your new treatment Caron Don't be discouraged by what I write. You might be perfectly all right with it. Let me know.
Rose