I’ve had anxiety off and on for 16 years, the last 4 being pretty smooth and I had my anxiety undercontrol to the point where if I had a panic attack I would brush it off afterwards and go about my day without any issues.
Well about 40 days ago I decided to take 3 hits of weed before the night was over, I haven’t smoked weed befoe this incident in 10 years.
I ended up sitting outside in my car for the next 2 hours having a major panic attack, the weed wore off and my panic attack resolved and I was feeling like myself again and told myself I will never do that again.
The next day I felt a bit off, me and the wife went for a ride, we went to a automatic carwash and as soon as we drove in I had another panic attack, she drove me home and I was okay again, I decided to get in my truck and go get some food, I pulled into a drive thru and panic started again but this time it was even worse, I was sweating and very fearful and instead of waiting in line I drove back home and was freaked out.
Ever since then I have had 24/7 anxiety, negative thoughts and have been worried about almost everything, my Doctor raised my lexapro from 5mg to 10mg and its been about 4 weeks now, I’m also taking .25mg of xanax twice a day, I didn’t tell my doctor that I smoked weed because I don’t want him to put me down as a drug addict, I had to quit my job for now because driving that far from home has become a major problem.
I’ve had episodes of bad anxiety like this before but this one feels more intense then usual or I just can’t remember how horrible and long lasting they can be.
Almost every day I wake up shakey and fatigued and about 5-6 hours after I wake up I usually end up taking a nap.
I went from working retail and being social to total withdrawal in a matter of a couple of days, at first I could hardly drive more then a few miles from home, but I have been getting out daily and going farther each day, exercising a few times a week and trying to enjoy hobbies even if they are hard to concentrate on while feeling this way.
Sorry for the long post, I’m wondering if anyone else has made a dumb mistake like I did and smoked weed which turned their life upside down.