I'm on week 11 taking 20mg of citlaopram, I had dreadful side effects but they passed after about 6 weeks, I then had 3 or 4 weeks (over the Christmas period) but since Monday my anxiety is as worse as it was in the beginning, it's just terrible, I don't want to be on my own ( which doesn't happen often as I have a 6month old a baby) but the only time I feel safe is if I'm with my family or when my husband gets home from work.
Had this happened to anyone else what sound I do?? I hadn't taken any diaizipam for nearly 6 weeks but have had to start taking them again and even I feel They aren't working anymore
It's really getting me down I'm having a horrible morning x
Sparkly today is the start of week 8 for me and im feeling exactly the same as you are :-( the anxiety is now waking me in the night! Im convinced mine is to do with hormones too as ive been waking with night sweats and then shivering.....cant stand it anymore
Alison
Hi Sparky...i have taken a few steps back this week too...but im putting it down to my hubby having timw off over the holidays and all that being over now x
Im still only on 10 and have decided im sticking with it...have you had any cbt or read any self help books???
I am also meditating and i swear it sends me into the most sound sleeps from back of 10 til arouns 5.30 /6 am x
Hi Sparkly
I had the same thing happen to me at about 11 weeks and it was really bloody awful. I went to my Dr who suggested upping my dose to 40mg. I went to 30mg for a few weeks, then up to 40mg. In hindsight I can see that my intense anxiety returning was due to my hormones and I possibly would have been okay staying on 20mg.
It does take a fairly long while to feel like you're back on an even keel. I'm coming up seven months on citalopram and I still have wobbly days and begin to doubt myself and not want to be on my own.
It is hard, but you will get there.
Louise
So sorry to be moaning this morning
I'm so exhausted all the time I fell asleep with my daughter last night at 8.30pm and then my little boy woke at midnight but my husband knew I was feeing yuk so he fed him for me but the he woke every 20minites so I was up and down out of bed nearly all night but I was getting back to sleep, but then wake from 7am
I have taken my little boy and I upstairs this morning and just lying watching TV I fee so bad doing this as I have plenty of housework I could be doing but just don't feel up to it, does anyone get those guilt feeling when ur feeing bad??
Hi sparky,
Good morning, I was exactly the same as that I hated when my boyfriend would say "just popping out" I would be like "why, where how long" I didn't want to be on my own an I had a child under 1 too.
By reading all your replies everyone seems to be having this sort of effect of them I don't agree with them making you feel like that I was on them a year an still had days where I was like that I never suffered with anxiety till I started these tablets - hence why I have now come of them .... I just don't agree with citalopram at al if they work for you then fine but if you get all these side effects then you don't try switching to another , I'm of them now an trying to get through it by myself I don't want to rely on these daft tablets that make you more messed up then you already was haha... Hope you decide what's best for you wish you all the luck I know exactly what it's like especially having a baby! If you want to talk more I will happily send you my email?
Aimee
Absolutely...juat be kind to yourself....i could barely be bothered with doing anything and that included looking after my kids...i just wanted to curl up in bed and get out once i felt better x
The lack of sleep you are having will be playing a massive part in how you are feeling x x x
I also took my period on Monday so I think that could be part of it too - what do you think??
I was the same at 11/12 weeks and I was also due a period so my anxiety was bad! I I'm on week 13 now and although loads better I'm still up and down and have off days! I had pnt 10 years ago and went on escitalopram and I was exactly like you I stuck it out but if I'm honest it took a good 8/12 months to be 100% then I stayed on a low dose and I had 9 great years until a massive breakdown in June so I switched my meds and citalopram is my 3rd lot since June and the best so far!
This forum is brilliant and helps us all get through. The journey is long but you will get there and over time you won't notice the ups and downs and you will feel your old self again I have a brilliant doctor who I see monthly and that also helps! Take each day as it comes and don't be to hard on yourself when you have these off days easier said than done I know! Your doing brilliantly xxxx
Hormones, lack of sleep, putting pressure on ourselves to be supermums.....all anxiety inducing.
Take time out for yourself, even if it's just 20 minutes on the couch reading a trashy magazine once the kids are in bed.
Thanks Aimee I do feel the Citalopram has improved things, I did try doing it with no medication but that wasn't an option eventually, as I was getting worse.
I have had anxiety for 8 years and was on cit for along time before I had my children but had to come off it to have my family, this is the worst it has been since I had my little baby in July,
It's crap
Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. I agree with yommymommy and reckon lack of sleep is playing a big part in how you feel at the moment.
Dont forget too, that recovery comes in waves, and if you've felt OK for quite a while, when you get the next wave of feeling low with anxiety it can feel worse than ever, though in hindsight it might be the same as you've felt before but feels worse because your body has 'forgotten' how it feels.
But I do think tiredness and raging hormones are the key. I know when I don't get my sleep I start to feel 'it' hovering slightly in the background.
Its hard with children, always on the go and lacking sleep. My husband helped with night feeds when our children were little so I could sleep too.
K x
Hi Sparkly
I am sorry to hear you are going through a bad time, what I have learned on this journey is that recovery takes alot alot of time, I am 4 months on cit 20mg for the first 9 wks and upped to 30mg for last 8 wks, and I can honestly say I have improved but nowhere near myself, and I think Alot of it with me and probably most of us is the extreme anxiety and fear of never getting your life back, so I am trying to tell myself that this is just a chapter in my life that will pass (easier said I know)!!
I can totally understand the whole guilt feeling as well, I had postnatal depression after my second child 6 1/2 years ago it was just awful I used to feel so guilty she was perfect and a good baby I would beat myself up thinking she deserved a happy mother not a wreck like me, I can honestly say I thought I would never be myself again but like what Katecogs said recovery came in patches I remember even feeling a little down on her 1st birthday, unfortunately it really is a long road.
I am not great myself this morning I thought I would never get kids back to school today and now they are gone I am lonely and have no interest or motivation to do anything, I also minded other kids from my home for past five years but since I started feeling depressed I decided to call it a day after Christmas, I would like to get a job outside the home but really don't know where to start or what to do!! Try to take it easy when you can the house work will wait sleep depravation feeds anxiety, you will get there xx