So I upped dose after 3/12 weeks from 20 to 30 as things weren't improving and by week 6 I really thought things were on the up ! I had started to want to eat again anxiety was lowering and I was sleeping etc but for the last 4 days anxiety is back with a vengeance , mood is all over the place and no appetite again , will this ever end ? I'm so so scared this will never work for me !!!!! Anyone had similair experience ?
3/12 weeks???
Three and a half weeks on 10 mg then went to 30 have been on 30 for just over 2 and a half weeks .
Actually said initially I was on 20 but it was 10 ! Can't think straight that's another side effect im sure ! I even put the dirty laundry in the tumble drier today !!!
6 weeks is a very short amount of time Hun and the fact that you had some improvement in that short period of time says that your meds are working.
It's very common to have good days and then days where you feel like you have gone back to the beginning. That's all part of recovery. Just take each day as it comes and try not to question how you feel. You are bound to have good and bad days for the time being but the bad days will become less as time goes on.
I don't think a single person will be able to tell you that they thought the same way you do,,that there medication wasn't working or going to work for them. I too have had them thoughts.
Just try to be mindful that you didn't get poorly over night,it was a long process that got you to that point so it's bound to take a little time to heal but heal you will. Xxx
Hi Gillian
Thank you I had thought I was possibly beginning to get a little better and can't believe how devastating it is to feel like this again 
I have no confidence and am scared of every feeling and thought ? The anxiety is hideous and I'm beginning to think the meds are causing it ! I'm questioning everything like is my dose to high / low but terrified of more change !!!! I feel like screaming with the stress of it all and have even questioned if I was ever ok !!! It's like a madness and I have no one to talk to about how I really feel ( apart from my partner who I don't want to burden ) . Mental health services here are under real pressure so there are no appointments for talking therapy or cbt for weeks even months !!!! I do really appreciate your support x
Hi, I'm 5 and a half weeks in and have felt the exact same way as you but slowly things are getting better. I too have felt like screaming and thinking I am going mad. This forum has really helped to see that these symptoms are normal. I go to a yoga class to help me control my breathing and try to do some sort of exercise each day. Hang in there, it will improve xo
Hi Yvonne, Your post could have been written by me, I went through virtually EXACTLY the same, I started on 20mg, I was told by my dr to stay on that dose for at least 8 weeks......week 1 was awful, week 2 was a bit better, week 3 I continued improving, week 4 I felt great, so much so I wrote a post telling people to stick it out as this drug works, week 5 I felt a bit lower, week 6 was patchy and weeks 7 and 8 I was like crap again and said exactly what you said "will this work for me". Week 9 I upped my dose to 30mg, ive now been on that for 6 weeks and ive stabilised really well, im even waking up looking forward to the day! Yvonne just stick to taking the cit religiously, it does work but it can be 3 steps forward 2 steps backwards.... be patient Yvonne you will get there!.....Luke x
One more thing I forgot to write Yvonne, and that is both Gillian20097 and a woman called katecogs both said to me "the fact you have felt SOME improvement at SOME point whilst taking citalopram means the drug is working, if it wasnt you wouldn't have felt ANY improvement whilst taking it"....very true words...all the best Luke x
Hi Yvonne
I started on 10 in August and 20 in September. I felt a bit better after around 5 weeks but had many ups and downs (as most of my posts show!). We're now end of December and I finally feel like my anxiety has totally plateaued - so believe me it can take about 3 months. You will get there and it will all seem like a distant memory. I barely remember what anxiety feels like anymore!
Stay strong x
Thank you Luke it's just so hard to believe in anything at the moment least of all myself !!! If I could just stop the anxiety the tingling body sensations the gutted feeling in my stomach and the low thoughts then bingo !! And that sounds like an impossible list I do appreciate everyone's support and both the ladies you named Gillian and katecogs have been the voices of reason for me many times over the last few weeks , i have googled soooo much elsewhere and read all the horror stories I'm not really surprised at times that I have no hope left but these ladies have been great !
Thank you holly I can't see it at the moment but I really appreciate the support ! I'm so obsessed with how I feel bad I'm scared I won't even remember how to feel better !!!!!
I know it's really scary, I felt the same - but just ride each day out and keep reminding yourself you're ON THE WAY to recovery. It won't happen overnight which seems almost unfair, but it will happen xx
Does anyone feel like their heart is racing constantly ? I can't slow mine down unless I take propanalol been on cit for 9 days scared my heart is something wrong with it ?