So I'm 15 years old and suffering with so many depressing emotions lately. So Im just gonna sum most of my problems up. Since like last year my whole world suddenly just turned dark. I started losing all my emotions. I lost the feeling of happiness. I've had these feelings for about a year off and on. The problems that make me feel sad are having low self esteem,, having no friends, no interests or hobbies and yeah. That's basically it. Right now nothing makes me happy and nothing interests me. All I do is sit around the house all day bored. And not just a regular bored its like this every single day. I haven't done anything in a long time. The only activities I do is work out and play guitar sometimes but even those I slowly lost interest in them. Basically in 8th grade I used to hang out with a big group of kids that did drugs and drank and used to hang out with them but since 9th grade started I don't even find them fun to be around or the stuff they do fun. I slowly stopped hanging out with them and basically don't consider them friends anymore. It sucks because now I have nobody. I don't find anybody interesting to even be a friend with. I had people from my classes that I used to sometimes be around at school but nothing like a friend ship. I also got low self esteem. I am not ugly or nothing but I feel as though I compare myself to other people to much which kills my mood. I feel like I'm nothing. Im always nervous to text a girl or even follow a girl I like on social media. My dad has a gambling addiction and my family is basically broken up. We're still close but we don't even seem like a family. I want to change because I don't wanna live like this anymore. I just don't know how. I can't drive, I have no health insurance or extra money to see a therapist. Even advice I get from people I just seem to not care even though I want to change. I feel like I have to live like this for a long time because there's not much I can do. I'm not suicidal or nothing but just feel sad and angry that I'm living like this. Every other kid my age has fun, goes on vacations, has a girlfriend or friends. Summer is coming up and now I don't even have school to distract my mind from this sadness. It seems that when I'm alone and bores I think about these thought. What should I do? Any help would be amazing.
It does seem like depression because you don't find happiness in anything. Well done thou for not hanging around people taking drugs that's a positive. Have you another adult you could talk to and confide in? What Country are you in, if your in the UK you can see a GP without paying. Can you get out for a walk each day, enjoy the fresh air. Exercising is great for helping with low mood. Just take small steps each day. If you can go to a GP explain how you are feeling.
Best wishes.
Elizabeth.
If you're in the u.s. you can see a dr or therapist for free at a local community mental health center. It sounds like you need that intervention. I too am suffering from the condition of exacting no joy or pleasure or interest in anything no matter what I do. The condition is sometimes referred to as "anhedonia", which is considered a common aspect to depression. I am currently trying meds to help with my depression.
Onyer for getting back on the rails after the drugs!
If you look at the venlafaxine anti-depressant threads on this forum, you'll see that its all mind affecting drugs that hits behaivour.
So you are off one set, but your mind is going "so I was trained to behave X, but now I don't have the drugs, I don't know what to do" so you lose all 'life'.
Best thing is to go on a doctor controlled antidepressant which will probably get your mind back to knowing what it wants to do.
Walk is also very good.. It giives you a "purpose".
cheers!