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In what context?
Thoughts of turning to practising methods of suicisde.
(a) a time of intense difficulty or danger.
(b) a time when a difficult or important decision must be made.
(c) a crucial or decisive point or situation, especially a difficult or unstable situation involving an impending change.
(d) the turning point of a disease when an important change takes place, indicating either recovery or death.
(e) a point in a story or drama when a conflict reaches its highest tension and must be resolved.
Circumstances alter cases, but a crisis is always a 'crisis'.
Have you got someone to talk to? Are you alone right now?
Im alone, crying. But think I've passed the worst. I've just been lying on my bed for the last 90 mins contemplating where I was. Tried calling sanitariums, but I hung up
A crisis is a challenging time in our life
It requires answers and ways of escape from what is causing the crisis which may be intense emotional pain and real internal suffering.
It could be the trauma of a loss or an illness that has been diagnosed.
It may be you lost your train ticket half way through the journey.
A CRISIS requires ACTION , it requires ANSWERS and the for me to do something to remove my self from all those feelings that only increase the anxiety and distress.
CRISIS is something in our lives that REQUIRES me to act and to show myself who I really am.
Am I weak and they type to give up and allow it to crush me.
Maybe it will crush me but will i then get back up and move away from the crisis.
It often demands that we ask for help and seek support.
I just want to re assure you here your in the right SPACE to be dealing with a crisis.
all of us in here have experienced what you are feeling at this moment or have been feeling while laying on your bed for 90 minutes
I am in crisis myself now
I have days where i literally cannot breath and can only see deep black and gloom everywhere , I have been at that place where i am so overwhelmed I have attempted to finish it all tow times actually
I remain in crisis every hour for the past 2 years living in a home I have wanted out of.
It has crushed me and made me so unwell I have been put through a whole different crisis wher I have been fighting for my life in Hospital.
All I know about CRISIS is it is there to make us fall or rise up in strength and to keep falling if we have to and keep picking yourself back up .
I am tired of Crisis in my life.
I want out of it all.
But i have also come to believe I am not the owner of my life it is my Maker, who gave me life from the beginning to the end.
It is not my time
I have so much more to do still in my life
I hope I make senses to you because the mere fact you have spoken out if only in a few words (maybe you a male) we dont like to disclose too much private stuff.
Thats men all over the world.
To me your few words speak volumes and tell me you want out of your Crisis and all I can say is WELCOME to this forum you are in a safe space and are understood by people just like yourself , we are not trained porfessionals we are real people with the same or simular issues to what you are going through
I invite you to open up and make every opportunity to learn by listening to others and as yo grow and begin to understand exactly who you are and what is happening to you right now
you will become strong and stronger and them be able to give back to others ater all you have learned and been given by these awesome and unique folk in here
Hugs
and Greatest of inner strength be yours as you lay down to sleep tonight
PJ
I understand the need to stop the suffering, that is why I drink too much sometimes and smoked cannabis in the past, it is good you thought of reaching out on here and ringing the Samaritans, call them again if you need to.
The important thing to remember is the positive times you have had before and will have again in the future, tomorrow you will feel a lot different.
Try and watch TV or make a snack, something to stop the cycle of thoughts.
If you feel that things get too much for you, then I would encourage you to persevere with Samaritans.
They are made up of good people who will allow you the time to express how you feel.
They are completely confidential, will never expect you to divulge anything you don't want to, and are completely non-judgemental.
I'm feeling a little better than last night. I drank too much alcohol. And while under its influence, coping seemed impossible for a while. I've saved the samitarians number into my phone so I won't have to google it again. The scariest thing in hindsight looking back to yesterday evening is my lack of fear, if that makes sense. I hope not to touch that place again. My tummy is in knots now, and I wonder how things turned drastic so quick. My partner works nights so that leaves me home alone to ponder on the hard things that happens during the day. I have slept about an hour now, and things seem a little better. Let's hope for a few more hours sleep before morning.
increased 'thoughts' can be a side effect of Citalopram, and I've been increasing my dose since Monday. Maybe it's related too.
Tks Ozzi and Archemedes.
Ive read online in recent weeks to have 4-5 people on hand to call or contact when in a crisis. That's difficult as I don't have 4-5 people who know im having these thoughts. Even my partner (whom ive told) seems not to understand. I'm not a talker, but more of a texter. I find relief in typing, but 2 way conversation is obviously better.
I appreciate your reaching out.
And capodingos too.
Hello again ELR.
I just noticed that you mention you have recently increase your dose of citalopram hydrobromide (Celexa).
In some people Citalopram can cause suicidal thoughts, especially when they first start taking them, or after increasing an existing dose.
The general rule is, if you experience any of the following symptoms, you should advise your doctor immediately.
These symptoms are:
Attempts to commit suicide or having suicidal thoughts.
Acting on dangerous impulses
Acting aggressive or violent.
Thoughts about dying.
New or worse depression.
New or worse anxiety or panic attacks.
Feeling agitated, restless, angry or irritable.
Trouble sleeping.
An increase in activity or talking more than what is normal for you.
Other unusual changes in behaviour or mood.
In any event it is not recommended that you sould take any alcohol whilst still taking this type of drug as it can greatly exaggerate the effect of the medication and make you feel worse rather than better.
It is not my intention to try and lecture you ELR, but simply to try and help you prevent things getting any worse than they are.
My best wishes............................
Arch x
From now I'm banning the booze. That's it 'Alcohol is banned now for me'. It was a large contributing factor last night. In the cold light of day I can see that now. Those thoughts/symptoms you mention above, I was having about 4-5 of them last night. I'm up too late to get an emergency appointment with the gp. I'll see how things go between now and Monday. The good news is my partner is home from work. I won't be alone again till at least Tuesday next week.
Thanks for advice, and for listening. Scared myself a little (lot) yesterday.
The Health professional I've spoken too this morning has deemed my actions last night as an attempt at suicisde. I was deeming it a trial. Practice. A dress rehearsal so to speak. It's freaking me out a little being asked so matter of factly about my attempt. Today I know I've got too much to live for, and that action would destroy my partner. It freaks me that I practised without considering any consequences. At least today I can consider the consequences. That has to mean I'm in a slightly better place.
Please be very careful of what you say to the health professionals.
I know exactly what you are saying here and understand what you are saying .
I too have the same feelings and am aware now of how to take control bacxk into my own life.
It is important to over emphasize to profeasionals you are not planning to kill yourself right now today or any time in the future
U may find Police about to knock on your door as by law they have to inform the police and authorities
if you need to speak about this over the phone then private message me and we can talk
I can give you my number to call me now
PJ
It should help you a lot to realise that where there is life there is also hope, and opting out of life solves nothing, but creates long-lasting problems for those that we leave behind.
Nobody would deny that life can get tough at times, but if we persevere with it and see it through, we generally come to a point when we can look back and realise that we have become much wiser people, and truly appreciate the opportunity of having been given it.
If you ever go back into that dark place again where life just gets too much for you, just give me a shout and I will try to stand by you and help you through it.
Best wishes
Arch.................
And you have my dear freind
You are amazing and a very unique and compassionate human being.
The world needs more individuals like yourself.
Life is full of meaning and is worth fighting for I could not agree more.
To plan ones death is so sad and meaningless.
But it happens to be a reality in this world today that people tkae that option for one reason or another.
And it doesnt need to happen.
Anxiety I have learned has driven me to openly say whet i am thinking and I cannot desribe why I go around telling people I have a plan B and if things get so so low again I will know how to act out with my plan B.
Its not helpful to anyone and causes alarm in others, which is like you said is nothing compared to what devestation it leaves behind.
I have seen this personally with 3 recent suicides in my own family.
Hugs
PJ
PS having this forum makes very good sense to me.
At least I am in a space where I am fully understood and I can be raised back up into a higher level that what I am thinking and what my head tells me.
That offer goes out to you too Ozzie.
If you ever again find yourself standing by that everlasting deep black hole of despair, wondering whether to jump in to oblivion, DON'T, just give me a shout, and let me stand by you and try to guide you to safety away from it.
The worst thing to experience when we are in despair is the solitude, the loneliness of it all, so don't allow that to be an issue.
You will never be alone - I am not unique, there are many like me who actually care enough to try and rescue others before it is too late to do so.
Best wishes
Arch
So many words of such wisdom in such a short space of time. A lot to sink in over the last 24 hours, but this afternoon is feeling better. Yesterday was fuelled by booze, work stress and increasing my cit.
I did make sure that health professional understood I was in a much better place this morning. The problem was she was assessing my needs for CBT, but it looks more likely I'll be referred for physcology now. I'm taking little steps, and I don't even know where I'm heading. I'm walking out into the fog, looking for a place where it may disperse.
Thanks. Everyone. For listening. For your encouragement and for your ultimate words of wisdom and support.