I hate that when I'm not anxious I hate myself for falling into the trap of being anxious. I hate that I can tell myself that what gave me a panic attack earlier was me being a drama queen, but I know that's not fair, because it always feels like I'm dying. I always forget how impossible the feeling is, it's not just thinking you're going to die, it's knowing it. I know in that moment that I'm going to die, but I don't. And I hate that. I hate that I can't say that to myself whenever I have an attack, to just tell myself I'm not dying, but i know in that moment, nothing is going to change my mind, because I am dying, inside.
Sorry you feel this way. But remember how many times you’ve felt that yet here you are
I understand how you feel. Anxiety is very difficult to deal with I know. We get things in our head and know we are right. I wish I could help everyone dealing with anxiety but I don't know how or I wouldn't feel the same way. Try not to worry about it. Hope you start to feel better soon.