Just been going through a very hard few weeks don't especially enjoy Christmas as I don't have many friends or just isolate myself for many years but just enjoying my children is good enough for me, unfortunately felt under pressure one day which is normal for me but sometimes I can put an idea into my head & not change it, this time I felt I wasn't comfortable around people & this including my children, I've been in this mindset for the last few weeks & it's so so hard to not enjoy my kids or feel like they are strangers but I do my best to hide it! I'm on Mirap currently but don't feel like this has fully been working for me have had a hard year trying different meds, my sleep has also gone in the last 2 weeks & people around me don't understand, I feel very on my own with this awful situation. My gp gave me a sleeping tablet but that isn't working, lack of sleep alone is tough going on me I'm a single parent, just want it & need it to change fast 😥
I am so sorry. You have many challenges to deal with. I too do not sleep I need to take sleeping meds along with antidepressants. How long have you been on the meds? You may want to tell your dr that both are not working. Also you may want to research the meds to see how long they take to work. We all feel alone at times and it is very sad for us. Lack of sleep is honorific. I know what that’s all about. Feeling like everybody is a stranger is also the pits. But you have a safe place here to vent and talk. We don’t judge we just try to get you through. You can always come here anytime you want to talk and express yourself. Please call your dr they will help you. They will know what to do. You may need an adjustment with your meds.
Hi Mar. I hear you on the no sleep. I suffered with that when I was young and I felt tortured I'm sure you do too. I've never heard of the medicine that you're on I know I have had to tweek my meds over the years and I will fight hard to make sure that I sleep. Have you had a good physical and some extensive blood work done? I have low thyroid and I can miss one day which I rarely do and it throws me off completely.
Thank God for kids they keep us going when nothing else in the world will. How about asking your GP to refer you to a psychiatrist their specialty is medicine. Keep us posted and I hope you feel better. Diane.
Hi mar99927,
You have come to the right place for people to help as much as they can. This forum has personally helped me alot. I don't feel so alone being able to express myself and have the great support from all the wonderful people on here. I first applaud you as a single mom and really putting on that brace face to face the day. I don't know how you do it. I have so much respect for single moms cause it's such a battle in its own this day in age. I too don't really have any friends as they all gave up on me with my battle with depression since 2009. I self isolate still alot. I find it my "safe place" I know it's not right to do it but I battle everyday still. I try and do what I really need to do but don't go over and above and I do know I need to change that too. I have been on so many meds you wouldn't believe. I was told I'm "med resistant' I have just started new meds and it's been over about 9 weeks now. I was put on a mood stabilizer and I feel a bit of a lift in my mood. It sounds like you haven't been on your meds very long. They usually say that it may take 6-8 weeks to kinda see the effect. If you haven't hit that 8 week mark just wait till about that time and if you don't see any difference then definitely speak to your psychiatrist or gp. Same as your sleep medication. Sleep is a big issue for me too. So the same goes for that med as well. You need your sleep. I have a very hard time with mornings and function better in the afternoon and evening. I am on a medical leave from work as I was really having a hard time. I'm not sure if you work and have a union. I am unionized and it was somewhat easier to discuss a medical leave. I'm not saying it was a piece of cake and it just happened. I have a great psychiatrist who it has taken me many years to warm up to him and get that patient client repore. But he has been fantastic to assist me with a medical leave. There is a "stress leave" and "medical leave" where I am. Medical leave leaves it more open as to when you are able to go back to work. Mine does not have like a date of return as I am still not capable to do my job safetly. If you are able to do your job then that is great. I would love to be back to work but I know I wouldn't last long as I'm not functioning enough to be able to do my job. Just give your meds about 8-9 weeks and if no improvement then definitely discuss with your doctor. I'm not sure where you live but there are excellent support groups in my area. I'm in Oshawa, Ontario. If you also have something like we do that is the Canadian Mental Health Association. That is a good place too to help you as well. Mental Health is getting to be so much better recognized and the stigma is still there but it's getting better. Research and utilize what you have in your area. You deserve to be happy and be the best mom you can be. I hope this helps a bit. I hope to hear a great story of a great come back from you. You deserve your happiness. And with having no friends. I have met people in my support groups that are great to talk too. We don't like do activities outside the group except talk on the phone and that. Sometimes that's all we need to brighten our day is just to talk to someone who understands us. My friends never understood or even understand nor educated themselves on what I go through so they just gave up on me totally. I find that they maybe weren't my true friends now that I look back. Good luck ...defiantly follow this forum cause there is some great people on here. You have support behind you on here. You aren't alone. Good luck and I hope I have you some insight and information that may help you.
Take care=)
You are very, very strong. You have a lot of responsibility. Maybe you might need an adjustment in your meds. Have you called the dr to tell them what has been going on ? They will know exactly what to do. Plus you will always have us anytime you need us. We are all in the same boat. We all suffer from some sort of binpolar depression or depression itself . Please call the dr you have a lot to live for and you deserve a quality life.
Would you be willing to have an adjustment in your meds? Call your dr he will help you he understands that this is needed sometimes and tell him about not sleeping you need to sleep bright light helps going outside going into a store the stores have bright lighting it does help