Oh you have nothing to reproach yourself about, it only too natural to feel anxious and stressed when feeling these symptoms, and especially when you've had trauma in the past it makes you wary and more vulnerable at these times.
If you haven't already had a blood test to confirm mono then would be worth going back to doc to ask for that, a simple blood test should be able to tell hopefully. It's so hard I'm the same every time you go in to see the doc you don't always say or ask what you wanted to. Remember though you are going to get better from this and it will pass over, you've done the right thing going to the docs and things and just remember don't beat yourself up, take it easy and let your body recovery.
Hang in there.....you WILL get through this - I totally believe that without any doubt - God is the great physician and will bring healing - He knows more than the doctors.
I have tested positive for mono - both via heterophile antibodies and for EBV. I think my fear is more about sepsis, or another condition that’s being overlooked because of the mono - having a fever, shortness of breath and body pains this long just doesn’t seem normal to me. It is comforting to hear you’ve had things pop up and then go away; I think that is partially why doctors think I’m a hypochondriac! Because a lot of things keep popping up or coming and going. The side pain is better now, thanks for asking, but I’m very congested and afraid I have the flu! Is the flu bad in Canada right now? I’m in California and it seems like people are dying at a scary fast rate!
Thanks Craig. I did have the blood work positively confirm it on 1/12. I am trying now to just have faith that I’ll het through this but... it’s hard!!!
Oh it's very common thing for folks going through mono to think that all sorts of other things are going on too, I know I did and was at the doctors more times than I care to remember and as you say most of the time they just disregard your concerns and don't take mono seriously enough.
It is good that you got that diagnosis because I know a lot of folk worry because they are having those symptoms and don't get that - so although it's not good of course to have the virus, take it as reassuring that there is a reason for what's going on. And of course do keep on at the doctors if symptoms seem strange or unusual, but remember this can manifest in so many different ways so even the things you don't think is mono quite normally can be - but always best to see the doc when unsure!
And you definitely will get through it Bjams, it's really tough to deal with especially this first 3 months, once you get by that stage the intensity often lessens but don't panic if it still takes a bit of time for recovery, because it definitely will come!
Thank you Craig. I really hope I get to the point where I’m so confident about the virus is behind these things. I just, for whatever reason, am so very convinced that I’m dying 🙁
Bjams your posts make me smile because they mirror what I feel.. when you’re feeling this it’s not funny, but when you read someone else saying exactly how you feel... it’s so crazy that it almost makes you want to laugh. I saw an inspirational post today that said “you survived 100% of your darkest days” and it really resonated with me. Each time I thought I was dying, each time I was crying and angry and feeling so ill... I survived it! And so did you! And we will keep on living and surviving buddy
Bjams it's an awful feeling I know it is, I really just want to reassure that all this will pass and you WILL feel better and more confident about things again. Know it doesn't help much when going through it, just really hoping for a more settled period and remember just take things one day at time when going through the virus, don't look far ahead and as Van says getting through a day when feeling this way is an achievement and should be looked upon like that.
Thinking of you both and hang in there - better and much healthier days are ahead, I believe that, but for now just rest and look after yourself and allow time of recovery, that's what your body needs, no matter how lt takes put your health first.