Do I feel like running away? Only every day! I have good days and bad. I had a week where I was great, it seemed I was back to my normal self, then boom! Dark thoughts, crying, barely getting out of bed to make it to work, thinking I had a dread disease etc.
I'm still working so I have to get out of bed. God willing, I will be retiring next April(in good health and sound mind
). Sometimes I think my job is driving me insane and making my menopause worse, but the Lord told me it's actually what I need at the moment. It makes me get out of bed and once I'm up I have to take care of things, daily chores, playing with a very demanding kitty I have Lol, and just pushing myself to do things. I go to the gym three days a week and try not to say no when my friends want to do things. I take a mild anti depressant called Trazodone(it's a SNRI not a SSRI, SSRI's made me so ill I missed work because of them). I have Valium for the really rough times. I drink plenty of water, take 250 of Magnesium, fish oil, garlic oil, D3, and a good multivitamin called Alive!-Women's 50 plus and I still feel bad sometimes. I cannot imagine how I would feel if I wasn't doing the few things I'm doing just to keep going.
Last but definitely not least, I pray to GOD on daily basis. Set aside some time for you, take a warm bath, get a message, meditate, YOU ARE WORTH IT.
I am postmenopausal nearly eight years, but don't let that scare you, I had my last period November of 2010, but I had such a high level of estrogen I had NO menopause symptoms until June of 2014, that's when my levels finally dropped enough and I started to have symptoms. I though I was losing my mind!!!
I'm sorry you are feeling so poorly, but you did the right thing by coming on this forum. I has helped me sooooo much. The ladies on here are incredible.
Oh and don't worry about what you see on TV! I saw this commercial where it showed this woman going through the different phases of life(it was commercial for Replens(vaginal dryness) When it got to the menopause phase it show her putting her thick, long gray hair in a ponytail getting ready for a hike. She was also very thin with no fat around her middle. I burst out laughing! If they showed a commercial about what menopause was really like maybe we would be more prepared. Don't show us a fantasy, show us the truth!!!!!
Sorry to on so, but you are not alone. Just hang in there, if menopause was easy mean would do it. Lol!!!!!