Why are things just getting worse??

Mental health
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I'm going to start by saying the last few days have been like hell. I've barely slept for almost a week, I have days with little or no appetite, and others where I can't stop eating. I also have a weird feeling in my stomach. It's the same feeling I get when I'm not looking forward to something, like an exam. I'm not worried about it, it's just annoying.

I've constantly been on edge, and the smallest of things seems to set me off. I don't seem to be happy at all. Anything I used to enjoy seems boring now. I'm finding it harder to hide how I feel from people. I know I shouldn't hide it, but I don't know how to tell someone. There's no one I trust enough...I opened up to my mother about a year ago, and specifically told her to keep quiet about it...after an hour she rang and told my whole family. All my friends would just make fun of me, and say there's nothing wrong.

I want to do something productive, but even doing the smallest of things tires me out. I have no motivation whatsoever. I have this weird urge to cut myself. I don't know why...I've never had it before (however I do have suicidal thoughts every now and again) and I don't think I will ever do it. It kinda scares me.. I don't want to be like this. I want to go to my doctor, but I dont think I can get an appointment without my mother being there ( I'm only 16).

Please help, it seems that when I feel like I'm getting better, things just get worse.

Thanks, Jack

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hi jack, i have gone through the same thing. What helps the most for of all is to do some physical activity, try your best to eat balanced meals, avoid drugs, try to get sleep. I know those things are hard but they will really make you feel better. Also try talking to someone.

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Hi Jack.You are dealing with an illness like any other so don't be embarrassed.Ask your mum to take you to the doctor and also say you want to go in on your own.As for your friends finding out they don't need to know anything about it.Forget what other people think just get help and start to get your life back.Please don't self harm as the scars will be with you for ever.

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Hiya Jack , it sounds like an anxiety disorder to me. All the symptoms you described Im suffering from as well xxx you are not alone with this and there is nothing to be ashamed of. Dont suffer alone. Speak about it, it really helps xx

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Jack I pray you find some peace, I suffer anxiety also but haven't had the feelings like you to hurt myself... is there anyone you can confide in like maby doctor, maby try and get referred to a councilor just to get out everything your feeling and suffering with... I used to be to scared to share my faith but without my faith I would suffer worse I get so much peace from talking to God don't suffer alone hope you feel better but I will pray for you...

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Hi Jack, You are definitely in the depths of anxiety and depression. Please talk to someone and see your doctor. You need help as soon as possible. There is no shame in having depression. I have had it off and on all my life. Talking here is a good start. You are with people who have experienced depression and understand.

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Hi, thanks for the reply. I plan on trying to get an appointment for my doctor tomorrow, I'm just going to be out straight and tell her everything. Do you have any idea if she will refer me to a therapist?? Or will I have to look for one myself?

Thanks again, Jack

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Hi, thank you for the reply. I have been trying to get more exercise the last few weeks. I plan on joining a gym but can summon the confidence or motivation to do so yet. For now, I've been bringing my dog on more walks and I've noticed that it actually does help, not much...but it's better than nothing. I've also been trying to eat healthy, and I do for the most part, there are days where I'm feeling terrible and I end up eating a load of junk, which makes me feel worse about myself. But the days I don't eat junk...I seem to sleep and feel better. I plan on going to my GP tomorrow or the day after, and I'm going to just be out straight and tell her everything.

Thanks again for the reply, Jack

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Hi, thank you for the reply.

I plan on going to my GP tomorrow or the day after. I'm going to tell her everything that I've said here. I have realised that I seem to worry too much about what other people think, and it has been controlling my life the last few months. I don't think I'd ever act on the thoughts I've been having...they scare me more than anything. ( They will be one of the main things I'll mention to my doctor)

Thanks again for the reply, Jack

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Hi, thanks you for the reply.

I am planning on going to my doctor tomorrow or the day after. I'm going to tell her everything and be out straight.

Thanks again for the reply, Jack

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Hi Jack ask to be referred to a therapist.l don't know if you are from the UK if you are you will be referred to CAHMS where they have pshcologists etc.Just say you need to talk rather than being sent home with medication.

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Hi Im so glad you are going to see doctor. Its gonna get better be kind to yourself and give yourself time xxx all the best x

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My doctor referred me to a therapist. I do group therapy. I like it better. I get to be with other people who are going through similar circumstances as myself.

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Hiya are you from uk ? Ive got therapy but 1:1 and honestly it doesnt do anything. Think I could benefit more from group therapy x

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Hi I'm from the Republic of Ireland...I'm not sure if we have anything like that. I have been to counselling before but that was after my father died and was in the cancer hospice. ( this is how all my problems started) it didn't help...I lied saying I was better just to get out of it.

I know my aunts friend works in a group that sounds similar to CAHMS, I think it's called jigsaw. I will ask my doc when I see her.

Thanks again, Jack