In desperately confused, I've just had my mock exams, which I tend to make deliberately stressful for myself as it's really important to me that I get good grades. For some reason my anxiety was really calm (excluding the fact I constantly worry about my memory) but now that I've finished everything has just come back. I don't understand at all, is it because I'm less busy? I keep telling myself the I'm pathetic and that every time I tell someone how I'm feeling I feel embarrassed, I feel like no one wants to listen to me, that no one really values me or enjoys my presence. It's eating me alive and I don't know what to do. I keep telling myself I won't make it till Christmas, that I'll die and I can't get rid of it. Every time I get more anxious I seem to experience new symptoms, this time I saw falling water when I looked the corner of my eye, im convinced I have a terminal illness. I don't know what to do, I can't tell anyone face-to-face, because I'll just sound irritating and attention seeking, I want to tell my friends but they never listen to what I say, or I can tell that they don't want to hear me. But I just want to everyone to know but not think im useless because they will I know it. I don't know what to do I feel alone, that everything is my own problem and I shouldn't be forcing it on other people because they will just hate me.
Alice' what you are going through is not your fault. Other people may want to help you but don’t know how. So they shy away from discussing it.
I highly recommend that you speak with a counselor who specializes in anxiety. They see this every day and know how to help you manage your anxiety.
Being less busy can have something to do with it because you may be thinking more about things.
You are not going to die. Anxiety creates hundreds of symptoms, including visual disturbances. I have had those many times.
Try not to react with anxiety because your symptoms will get worse. You need to calm down your brain to reduce symptoms.
I have been through this hundreds of times and have had every symptom of anxiety you can think of.
I learned that I had to take control over anxiety or it will run my life.
First I got counseling which helped me learn the reasons for my anxiety and stress and gain better control.
I started exercising which releases the feel good hormone from the brain.
I got more active and focused on other things.
I listened to audio meditations for anxiety on you tube and still do.
We cannot expect friends or family to come up with solutions to anxiety because they don’t have the skills like a therapist does. They can only be a sounding board but cannot provide you with a therapeutic plan.
You are not useless, you just need support with this.
Feel better!,🌸🌸🌸
I am sorry for the way you feel but I am sure things can get better. It could be because you are less busy - gives one more time to think, over-think, stress out, worry - when you are busy your focus is elsewhere so maybe that distracts enough. You should not feel embarrassed or bad for the way you feel - not allowing yourself those feelings & trying to push them away cannot be healthy or helpful. I am sorry that you feel like no-one cares, listens or values you but when you have family & friends I would assume they do. 
People who care will listen & try to help you, you just need to let them know - is there no close friend or your parents that you can talk to? have you tried or do you only fear they will not care? Yes, it is your own problem but that doesn't mean that people wont be there for you to support you & I can't imagine anyone will hate you. If it helps you share here, we are here to listen & can imagine how you feel & relate - maybe that helps already. In the worst case talk to your doctor about how you feel - he gets paid to help you after all. See what steps you can take to get better & take them. You are worth feeling happy & good about yourself after all.