Will I ever recover from Anxiety ?

Mental health
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Yes -Yes -Yes

If you really want out of Anxiety it requires dillegent lifestyle changes .

​It requires complete honesty with yourself too.

​It may require as it did me to move away from the place which was causing me distress .

​And it requires real Courage to step out of the zone I am in and to step into somewhere new and aplace that gives myself a much stronger chance to recover.

​My anxiety went from all these accounts I read in here + a lot more.

​I am now back in here after 5 months of absense from this open forrum discussion and enjoying the benifits of knowing recovery from the accute Anxiety that was causing me such profound distress and was playing horrible lying games with my fragmented state of mind.

Am i over the Anxiety today...

No

​Will it always be there for me ?

Yes

​But the real difference now is it is managable and instead of giving into what my head was telling me I am able to now have control over it by taking back the steering wheel of a vehicle that had lost complete control and I am able to now steer myself in a positive and constructive dorection without fearing I am heading over the next bridge of complete doom.

​Anxiety to me is a lying , deceptive and progressive mind illness , that is able to cloud my mind and thought pattern , filling me up with all things negative and so harmful to the point i was paralysed and bound in complete fear.

i can assure you it does not have to be that way.

​I am in the midst of a complete lifestyle change , a road called Hope with knowledge that my journey is continual and requires turning corners and I am now operating the machinery inside my head so that the vehicle I am now in , which is so different to my  previous experience of driving myself out of control , instead I am in complete control and am able to see myself through each step by step change of this whole new journey that i had convinced myself was not possible ever.

​Only the stong amongst us will survive the effects of Anxiety and will be able to walk out of the darkness that we know and move into the light of a whole new day .

​I am still aware that I am fragile and have the ability to go the wrong way , but I am even more aware having come so far in my mental illness that I am capable to reverse the wrong street i have entered into by default.

My tip

keep it simple.

Dont complicate and try to over evaluate every thing that happens through out a day in your life.

​Continually ask yourself  .. How much do I want out of this mind destroying , lying state ?

​And I can assure you that if you want to accept others advice and make it work for you then it will take you to step out of that comfort zone that has become the norm for you in that paralyzing anxiety that wants you to believe that your not worth it .

​Phil...

 

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Thank you for this. Sometimes others advice is helpful as well. It depends what stage of the healing you are in. But i enjoyed reading this and happy for you that you have managed it.

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Posts like this are a massive boost for those whose confidence has plummeted. I applaud you for taking the time to encourage others and for good place you have managed to put yourself. Well done

The only area where my belief differs from yours, and this is only a personal opinion,  and in no way am I being argumentative, but I don't agree that only the strong amongst us survive AD

The strength is there in all of us. Sometimes it is buried under the weight of the anxiety and the horrendous symptoms. We have to encourage everyone to dig deep for it. We have to instill in them the belief that courage is still there, just waiting to help them along that dark path into the light again.

But it's a wonderful post and I thank you for it!

 

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Dear helen

​firstly thank you kindly for the encouraging feed back of my posting.

I believe what you said is so right and correct as the strength is always there in each of us and yes again as you said it gets buried under all that horrible anxiety and distress we are battling to survive with.

​My personal story is striking and painfull and long lasting and to find myself in the new space and place I have recently moved to has given me all that lost hope back and a real major turn around to all things are now possible and that hope that was covered deep away under the pils of pain have now re amerged in my life and I am able to find a future in my self , trust in those things I wish to pursue in my life and to appreciate everything around me that is here and happening at this one moment .

​And knowing that when those challneges arise again I am better equipped in myself to deal and cope with them as they arise.

Life is so precious and with meaning to today.

i wish all those in here and those who do not know this site exists that they too can find and really experience the recovery i am enjoying today.

​I am leaving behind me 16 years of disability benifit and moving forward into my own start up retail Juice and smoothier bar herein my new home town of Tiverton , and it will be known as Nectar of the gods.Devon.

​Body-Soul and Spirit is who we all are .

Hugs

​Phil M

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AW, now you made me cry! Mascara all over my face!

Such a beautiful, beautiful post!

From the bottom of my heart I wish you well in the new life you have carved out .That takes enormous courage and I am deeply moved by your story! You have so much now that is positive in your life and you are right, anxiety disorder never entirely leaves us. But your determination to loosen it's grip, to admit its existance but no longer allow it to dictate your life, is truly inspiring.

And you reside in a place close to nature smile The sea and the countryside around you where the changing season are the most glorious. That in itself is uplifts the soul.

You have earned your right to peace and happiness, wearing the scars with true bravery

I send love and respect and admiration

Helen

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I fully agree, and think it takes much more strength to live with anxiety than it does to live without it. Strength is something we never give ourselves enough credit for.

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I am incredibly proud of the Forum members to be honest. We might wilt and waver and shake and tremble but at the end of the day, no matter what, we're still standing. Always ready to give it another go smile

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And you Helen are a Hidden gem .

​Your unqiue and amazing gifts of words that bring my life into a true description so beautiful .

It has given me all the insight and food for thought enough to sustain just this one more day in my life.

Your expression has described my journey for what it was.

It never amazes me that there are beutiful Gems of the most amazing kind like you have shown yourself to be to me in here.

​I was a pre existing member for 12 months in here around one year ago, i somehow was locked out of the site and unabble to return.

​However it was through this site in the previous 12 months I was awarded the gift of real freindship through 2 other amazing comrades of this Anxiety Room and today our freindship remains stronger than ever outside of this room.

​It is up to the individual in how they use this room and what happens for them .

​It was important for me to listen to others , not nessacarily have the need to understand what they were advising me to do and how to cope , as that would of been too much, but all i need to find that road out of what was bleak was to be willingto listen and put what I was advised into practice .

​I was left without any other support, in Central London not even was I given and professional care , there was literally no one to turn too and I can only give thanks that it was this forrum that showed me that all the isolation that had entrapped me , there were others who knew the route to escape from a place that held no sane future but just a slow and degrading fall .

​recovery will take a lifetime .

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Dear Phil.

Anxiety can be the loneliest of illnesses. Non-sufferers do not nor cannot understand, therefore they lack the necessary empathy, the tools to help those whom, in my opinion, need sustaining the most.

Illnesses that society can recognize and relate to are awash with support, from modern medecine/operations and so on and so forth, to. family/friends, who rally round, falling overthemselves in their willingness to offer help and support.

I am loathe to term Anxiety Disorder as a mental illness, not because of any personal disassociation born of shame. But I view Anxiety/Depression and it's offshoots as an Emotional illness. I see a disparity between that and Mental Illness. I believe there has been huge strides forward in the care of the Mentally ill whilst those suffering with Emotional illness are the poor relations. But then again, that is only my personal viewpoint

 There are, sadly even in this day and age, ignorant people who view anyone suffering such a thing, in the vulgar terms of They're Nuts! Not Right In The Head and other such abysmal and pathetic descriptions. That which they do not understand they regard, not as a failing on their behalf, but on the  part of the sufferer. Naturally, we should all pull ourselves together and get on with it.

Stupidity at its worst.

Were the support needed out there, Sites like this Forum would not exist. But thank God it does. This is our bolthole, our haven. Here we can be ourselves. We don't have to pretend everything is alright. We don't have to show the world a brave face when inside we are scared and lonely and shaking.

It's a wonderful sense of freedom.

Your praise of me was fulsome and I was hardly deserving of it but thank you anway.

In some regards you are in a fortunate position. If there are times when the anxiety stalks you, you can hget out there, watch the changing moods of the sea. Nature is a beautiful thing, it reminds us that life itself can be, if we let it, be beautiful too.

Take advantage of that smile

Helen