Xxx

Feeling like I'm crazy with the way that I am

Have only one friend of whom I call Sam

But this is just a short of a name

So nobody else will see

really it's the Samaritans that are talking to me

They're the only people I talk to and release all my thoughts

To tell my darkest secrets to and all the pain that they have brought

I pretend they're are a friend someone who listens to me

The truth is I'm pathetic and just want so much to be free.

To be a normal person to have a normal life

To be able to carry on without telling lies

About myself and who I am

I just want so much to be normal

...but I'm not sure that I can!

Hi hun. Sounds like me im trying xxx what is bormal anyway xxxx

Normal even *

I don't know but can only assume it's something other than me

Couldnt have put it any better im like half happy n trying to start s future and my other craxy partvof my head full of soucidal thoughts xxxx

Big hug xxx

I understand how you feel. I'm not sure what the answer is as I'm still struggling with similar feelings myself. I hope one day we will feel differently. Sending hugs x

I tried to keep on but feel I'm failing it's so so hard

What a nice poem. You have expressed yourself so well. We on this forum cannot be seen but we hear and reply to whoever needs it and we get replies too. Straight forward unprejudiced replies.

We all want to be happy and lead normal lives and we need to help each other do that. So a better support system i cannot think of, can you?

This is one I wrote last week...

Broken promises and dying dreams

are all that I have left,

Alone and hurting, a silent scream

that only I can hear.

You promised we would be OK,

You'll get through this you said.

But here I am at the top of the cliff,

a whirlwind in my head.

I cling to promises of what tomorrow may bring.

But all hope fades and dies,

as the voices start to sing.

Just one more step and you will fly.

Nobody here for miles around.

Finally some peace, some space.

Free at last, my soul unbound.

Tears gathering on my face.

Grasping hands around my heart.

Gentle voices urging me closer.

Two desires tearing me apart.

I look to the sky and I know my answer