I don’t know if this makes sense, but despite consistent therapy, my brain still operates from a place of fear rather than logic or freedom. Therapy has helped me enormously with depression, addiction, and anxiety, but this particular issue feels woven too deeply into who I am because of my traumas.
My thoughts default to fear of losing, getting hurt, hurting others, and suffering. I avoid confrontations, refuse to talk when I expect conflict, and get way too upset if someone disagrees with me… I fear being left alone…
I’m also at a point where my peers seem to have acquired so much more than I have, and I genuinely think it’s because I don’t expect good things for myself or believe I deserve them… I have a lot to be grateful for, yet my brain chooses to focus on what may go wrong…
Does anyone else feel this way? Has anyone found a specific therapy that helps with this? I feel like I need to access my unconscious mind to actually get to the root of it. Would love to hear what has worked for others…
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Easy. Remember you’re blessed with real health and your fears are irrational. You should be grateful that your fears are false. 
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thank you for your advice. I really appreciate it. I just wish it was as easy as you have explained.
It’s easier than you are describing it for yourself. You live in your own world, those things around you (people, other animals, plants, weather climate, etc.) are a part of your world. You can trick yourself into thinking you can manipulate the world around you to your best fit. I say “trick,” because I don’t think free will exists. We are born without choosing our parents, that means our genetics are already predetermined. We are born in an environment that we did not choose, and environment = nurturing aspect of one’s behavior/life, while genetics = the nature part. This means that the environment already is morphing our nurturing, along with the two parents we did not choose. By the time we get control of ourselves the match had already been lit and what we think of as “free will” is simply a reaction to what had already happened in the past. We humans have the ability to self reflect and analyze (seemingly) better than other animals, giving us the illusion of free will. Why type all of this out? Because you can falsely (tricking yourself into thinking it’s YOUR choice) to shape your world to raise the probability of your preferred outcomes. Your detrimental mentality is an overload on the balance of your thinking process and should easily disappear if you think enough about how irrational it is. You can control things in your world up to a point (with the trick that it is your own free will doing so); but, so can the billions of other lifeforms around you. That means you should use your life experience to nullify the fears in your mind because you have lived long enough to anticipate behavior and potential outcomes of certain scenarios and processes. Remember, all you can do is raise the probability of your desired outcome. The only way to guarantee all of your preferred outcomes is to decrease the possibility of outcomes - thus, limiting your life to a seemingly boring flow of water so to speak. All living things like excitement, that includes you, sometimes you should take a risk (not a risk that chances great bodily harm for yourself) and maybe the risk taking will lower your fear level, as you will eventual become desensitized to potential unsatisfactory outcomes.
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Thank you for explaining this in such great detail. I will definitely try taking more risks.. And you are right, I am too cautious, and I like to move preplanned.