sorry I have not been about for a while. This was due to family stuff beyond my control and I needed some time to sort myself out. Last time I was on here I said I would be visiting relatives. That was cancled and I did not go. My dads sister put a spanner in the works. My dad passed away the day after I was ment to see him so I never got to put thing right with him.
anyway enough about that. I have just had my 25 th wedding anniversary so me other 1/2 and our son went out for the day I coped pretty well. But I was exhausted once I got back home.
Pother 1/2 has bought me a Alaskan Malamute puppy which will arrive in about 8 weeks. I am also getting a border collie puppy soon too
My hip milestone happened today. For the first time in over two years I had my first bath. No more strip washing. No more sitting in a very uncomfortable shower chair. I layed and soaked for over an hour and I feel so clean. I got into and out of the bath on my own with a little help from one of my crutches. After everything that I have gone through I now feel like it was all worth it. I am still getting the odd niggle. But I am off all pain killers now. I still need physio because I can't walk unaided yet my muscles are still way too weak and that should start soon. I see my surgeon again in 3 months. I walked to my GP on Friday 3/4 of a mile in the rain. I didn't care if I got soaked through I was just glad to be out in the fresh air.
To to those that are scared it is natural to be I was scared both times but if you had traveled the road that I have and come out the other side and making progress after years of pain. Please don't give up. All will be right in the end. I never though I would get over what I have but I was determined. The people on here kept me focuses. It was so frustrating for me at times seeing people getting better going out enjoying themselves while I was stuck in bed or a chair in the house. Now I feel I have caught up a lot. So don't give up. Everything will and does come right in the end.
So sorry you didn't get to see your Dad, Hailea, that must be wrenching. Sigh.
Glad to hear you got to take a nice walk and had that lovely, soaky bath! You've had so much pain in the past, that you deserve all the nicest experiences!
happy easter to you, i was wondering where you were, glad to hear you are getting along on this journey of journeys. Bet you stayed in that bath eh just enjoying it, i did when i had my first shower just let the water run was amazing.
you take care, so sorry to hear about your dad , he would be very proud i am sure of your progress
Sorry about your Dad. Wishing you a speedy recovery, with the 2 breeds of dogs your getting you'll need to be extremely fit as they're both going to need an awful lot of exercise!
Thank you. I have lost both parents now 18 years apart so the worst one was my mum. She went way too young to cancer. I was never really close to my dad so this time isn't as bad. I just wanted to face my dad and ask him a few things and get closure. That won't happen now. I have cut contact with the family for personal reasons. I am happy where I am in life so that is all that matters to me now.
Some times if folk tick me off I just go into hibernate mode I shut down everything and take time for myself no internet no iPad just me and a bunch of DVDs and my dogs. Even hubby stays away when I am like that the dogs know I need them and just stay with me. It is just how they are.
Yeah i I was very pleased that I made it up the stairs managed to get in slid down the back of the bath slowly like a slide lol. Then managed to hawk myself onto the side of the bath and using the hand basin and a crutch got myself out again. It took a lot out of me and I felt a little dizzy after but I recovered quite quick.
I have had both breeds before so I know what I am letting myself in for.
Both the collie and the Alaskan malamute will run in harness I used to run two teams of Siberian huskies I still have 3 left after the others passed away over the last 5 years. I am doing this to get me motivated again to get fit for the show rings in the summer and the races in the winter. So I will get to meet all my friend I have made in the last 20 odd years
Hello darling .... so good to see you back here - I can feel your joy about taking a bath, getting puppies and walking in the rain ... Good Lord, what a road you have traveled -
Congratulations on your 25th wedding anniversary ! I am sorry about your dad - I wasn't able to say goodbye to my dad either (he was killed in a foreign country) and I know about this unfinished feeling - Just know that all is well - the answers will come to you ...
sorry you lost your dad that way I had the chance to get my answers and it was taken away from me. I have always felt like a third wheel in that family any way so no biggie. The ties are cut there is no going back I never felt part of the family any way and more so since my mum passed.
I wont get my answer it will never happen now. Only he would have been able to say sorry for putting me through what he did. Life must go on nothing I can do about it now.
Good to hear that you are doing well - even with the sad news about your Dad mixed in. I lost my Mom recently as well. Please accept my condolences - it hurts no matter how you were getting on and I hear how hard it will be hard to not have closure with him. I am sorry for that for you.
But ... it sure sounds as if the rest of your life is going well and that you are running with it - dogs and all. Bravo.
I still haven't had a bath but I am starting to look forward to the day.
Be happy Haile and don't let the ghosts spoil your life.
Thank you. This does not really hurt. I am just angry. I have come to accept that I will never get the apology I know I deserved and an explanation for things that have happened. That is just how life is some times.
hope you are ok. I have had a lot of kicks when I am down in my life. I think I am getting emune to it except when I loose one of my furry friends.
I am stubborn and I was getting so fed up of not feeling clean no matter how often I washed I forced myself to get up the stairs and into the bathroom. I just had to work out the best way to get in and out the bath. I am glad I kept up the excersizes to keep my upper body strong I felt that was important to help me recover quicker too
I have no ghosts Linda. I lost those years ago when I lost faith in the people who adopted me and were ment to care for me. Protect me and look after me.
Yes, glad about the bath. Maybe that will wash away some of the bad feelings you have been going through. It struck a chord with me as I lost my own Dad at 16. He just went off to a football match and had a heart attack amd passed away a long way from home. All we got back was a small casket of ashes. Tough for a young teenager but very character
forming. Time passes and you do get over it but then something pops up and brings it all back.
As to the hip situation you are on the up at last. See, we said you would get better.