Been on my meds 3 weeks now. Citalopram 10mg. It has been up and down. Yep, a total roller coaster of a ride. First the side effects, then the numbness, then the lack of emotion, the insomnia, followed by some good days, and equal bad days. Feel like all this was starting lo level out. I was starting wake less night, and my mood had been increasing. Today I'm a mess. Felt stressed and exhausted last night, but couldn't sleep again. this morning feeling weepy for the first time in weeks. Head sore with tiredness I think. Down in the dumps. Distracted. Fidgety. Tired. Grumpy.
Hi, I have been on 20mg for just over 4 weeks and only now starting to settle down properly. bear with it! The first 2 weeks were like being drunk, I felt great (until i mixed it with too much alcohol!) The 3rd and 4th week were the exact opposite, i was quite down, tired and couldnt be bothered with anyone or anything. Thankfully I seem to be coming out of that stage now and thngs seem to be settling a bit. Stick with them, Im sure you will feel better soon
Hi Again!
Yep tis a bummer! Trust us you will come out the other side! Its just that, at the moment, that old roller coaster is going through some fuzzy old fog and yer feeling jaded. As you may know I am on 40mg been here since month 4 now I am on month 6 going on 7 and in a couple of weeks my Doctor will consider reducing me. The month by month increase was right for me as after the first month I levelled slightly then hit some turbulance and increased which meant a slight increase in side effects, but this did not last long. By February I was starting to feel better, more so than not, and this gradually levelled out. I did get some unexpected downers! Which at first really p@@@@d me off! However, as these became less persistant and lesser in time I managed to go with it.
Now, here I sit ( slight buzzing, but that may be because of reliving the bad stuff as I type.
Anyway, when you feel you need to post something or just chat there be a lot of us here to listem and help!
Regards,
David
David, Tony.
Thanks for the replies. It's always encouraging to hear from you, especially on days when I'm not 100% sure what's going on with myself. When I read success stories it's inspiring. I hope that I too will be posting the same type of success stories soon.
I guess when I have a good day, I'm getting excited thinking "this is it' and 'I'm getting better'. Then when this is followed by another downer, it feels like a double blow. I think I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but all too soon it fogs up again.
I know it's early days for me on cit. I know I got to walk before I can run, but patience has never been a forte of mine. This is adding to my anxiety I guess, but I don't really want to admit that.
I'm back to the GP in a couple of days. I guess I'm trying to understand and know exactly where I'm at, so I can make my review as honest and open as possible. Feeling better this evening than I was this morning, but now I get a little scared that a high will undoubtedly be followed by another low.
Again thanks for the encouragement. It's much appreciated.
Hi, E.L.R,
I felt the the same way you do.Feeling up one day then low another and wondering why because.I was on citalopram and these should make me feel better but it doesn't work that way.As my doctor said everybody has bad days and then I realised that I needed to relax and don't get too fixed on taking the tablet so I pretended that I was taking an aspirin every morning and itworked for me.
I do think like you that I was impatient because I felt bad for so long that that I wanted to feel better straight away.
You will get there and it is worth it in the end.
I've been on them 18 months and I am just starting reducing now and I feel great in myself.
All the best,
Sharon. X
My biggest daily chore has become 'getting out of bed' I find I'm awake long before the alarm, yet still in bed long after the alarm. When I lie thee I'm contemplating all the tasks I need to do just to leave the house for work. As my partner works nights, the morning chores are all mine. Get up, shower, get dressed, teeth, toilet, go downstairs, feed the pets (3 cats and 2 dogs). Make coffee. Empty dishwasher, Have a Borrocca, walk the dogs, drink coffee, catch some news. It all seems too much. When I do get up, I cope by skimping on the non essentials. Ie, not walking the dogs, reusing yesterday's dirty coffee pot (because I forgot to put the dishwasher on), and (this one is the hardest for me to admit) not showering. I still manage to clean my teeth though. I'm sure I must stink, as I haven't washed in 10 days, and 7 days before that. The less I wash, the more I get down, and the less I feel like doing. So again the harder it is to get up. I can see and recognise the spiral downwards. I'm struggling to stop it.
Done.
Its easy for me to say things will get better because I've been exactly where you have and had to drag myself to work and sort 2 kids out and doggy but I got through it and can see a light at the end of tunnell.
You will find out for yourself as time goes by..
Sharon. x
I guess I'm in this illness deeper than I previously realised. Time and patience are the order of the day, but today I'm very distracted, and not achieving much at work. 😕
Hi, I am new to this forum and so relieved to be here! As mentioned have been on Citalopram for years and have good days and bad. Am in bed (have been all day!!) unwashed and unmotivated despite living on a beautiful farm. I depend heavily on family help which just deepens the guilt.... I haven't even cleaned my teeth today. Thanks for being brave enough to discuss this, just talking about it really helps. The fact that we are taking meds shows there is a desire in there to feel better. I try to accept the bad days and take good days as a bonus - easier said than done.
Welcome su. I won't pretend I have all the answers, but as you say' talking helps. (Or even typing helps). I say lots of things on hers that I cannot (don't) say at home. It's an outlet for me. Sometimes I don't even know what is going to come out until I have started typing. i find relief here from offloading all my grief onto my friends and from just being a downer all the time here I can say what I'm feeling, let it out, and know there will be support.
Recover quick. Let's forget the bad days, and anticipate good days to come.
Thanks for your welcome. I agree it is tough feeling you are on a downer with loved ones. I am frustrated to feel dependent on Citalopram, I have been on a waiting list for counselling for 6 months now! One thing I have learned is to just go with it - be glad of a few "normal" hours but allow myself to have bad days. I'm self employed and I do worry how unproductive my time is - I just couldn't hold down an employed job at the moment.
Sounds like everyone is feeling the same! I'm week 3 on 10mg citralopram and honestly had the worst time, even considered giving up. Like yourself I've read many success stories that kept me motivated. My anxiety is still affecting my life but I try not to push myself too hard and knowing other people are in the same boat as me makes me feel a bit better as I know ill always have people to talk to and get advice from x
I'm back to my doctor today at 5.30. I suspect I'll be upped from 10mg to 20. My friends are telling me to get signed off work, but I'm fretting about letting work down and being branded unreliable. been working from home today, which allowed me to dooze on the sofa for a couple of hours this afternoon. still waking 4-5 times a night and now feeling very tired.
how are you quys getting on?