Good Day Everyone
5 to 4 years ago, I have a girlfriend and we are in a intimate sexual relationship, one day i decide to cut my pubic hair, so i cut very short, then one day I saw a mild painful pimple mark on my the area where i cut my pubic air, after that I didn't cut it anymore and I don't feel any pain, then after 2 or 3 years, I notice like a bump on my pubic hair, and I'm not sure if it's the same spot where the pimple shows up, he's not painful or itchy, sometimes it hurts when the public hair where is tangling pulls of, there is no blood or anything, I didn't mind this for the next years and I have no girlfriend at that time, and I'm currently busy on my work, but 1 year ago I'm having this anxiety depression, I start having pain in urination from 2016 then in 2017, on my 2016 I am negative on both STDs and HIV, the pain came back on 2017, a GP gave me a shots for STDs without any lab test because he thinks that it was STD, since I have a sexual partner at that time, This makes me more anxious, my anxiety level increase as stress on work at having this sickness makes me panic, fearing I have HIV, so after 4 months of contact, I got a test for HIV and it turns out negative, I thought the anxiety will gone but still I have panic attacks (other source is my stress at work), and now the bumps on my pubic hair always got my attention, As I search it on the internet, it seams a Warts, Urologist and GP (annual check-up) ignore it when the checking it up, it says it always shows in hands, groin or in penis, but this warts is only on my public hair, it was cause by HPV virus when i search it, which is no cure, this makes me more anxious and depressed, fearing about my future, fearing that I may transfer it to other person (but according to my ex girlfriend, she is always on regular pap-smear and her physician does not notice warts on her body, i also ask my other ex girlfriend said she does not have warts, they do not lie to me because they also fear that I gave them warts but their regular check us does not show does). Right now I'm very anxious each time I see it when I'm taking a bath my mind does not calm down, because I worry that no one will love me or even marry if they find out about the bump on my public hair, and I'm being afraid that I have HPV on my body, I don't discriminate people who has HPV but you know people are very careful on people they want to have relationship is, they do not discriminate but only care for their health, right now, I don't look for a girl right now because of the fear of having warts on my public hair, I'm afraid that I will infect her with the virus, I don't want that, and I also don't want to be a single person forever, can someone please tell me if this is a warts or other reason?