I haven't left my house in 6 months. Crazy right! I know. My biggest fear is feeling that anxiety attack and not being able to get thru it. I started having them when my husband was disappearing all night, stealing, lying, cheating, it got ugly for 4 years and having 5 kids all boys wasn't easy. House in bankruptcy, his fines piling up, bills past due, working for him to steal it from me for drugs. Now he's off the drugs but get drunk every night. I feel guilty everyday of my life not being able to force myself to leave. I beat myself up daily but I really expected my husband to be supportive since I was so supportive of him... Instead he comes home gets drunk blames me for everything and beats me down. How can I get thru this? How can I force myself to just face the attacks and leave this prison??? I have anti anxiety pills... Ativan .5 mg bc I'm so small even a quarter of a .5 knocks me on my butt.. so I can't take them. Any advice how to face the fear of the attack itself ??? Please help
You really, really need to get some help that will remove such a person from your home and life - if not for yourself and your own wellbeing, then for your boys - report him - otherwise, I fear you are never going to feel any better no matter what pills you may be on or what else you do to try and alleviate the anxiety....do you have anyone close to you that could help you through this? They always say you should always try to pinpoint the reasons for your anxiety and work at them - removing them from the equation if at all possible. I really do wish you all the very best but until you reach out and get the necessary help to ensure your husband stops his behaviour then idk what else to suggest tbh
Sorry if my first response was a little blunt - have you and your partner ever sat down and discussed things and sought outside help to manage your issues - either together or separately? If not, maybe you should think about doing it immediately.
I can handle blunt. My husband and I have tried therapy a few times, it doesn't work with him. He doesn't like what the therapist says and that's it. I just want to know is there way to just say the heck with it and force myself to deal with the anxiety. As soon as I leave my house I know I'm gonna have one. It's inevitable and in my mind I just don't want to have that feeling. The racing heart is what scares me the most. I can handle the sweating and a little shaking but the pounding heart and yuck feeling drives me mad!!! Lol it make smell feel like I have the flu and I'm so afraid that if I do leave that my attack will last until I get back home. Does the attack end or keep going and going like an Energizer bunny? Ahhhh. This isn't me. I'm a skydiver, spontaneous, active... Being like this is soooooooo not me. It's like I'm someone else.