Anxiety and grief stricken

Cousin's really are our first childhood friends. I never had siblings but I had my cousin Jeanette. She was the closest thing to a sister that I have had in life. She had a heart attack at 40 years old. The damage to her brain due to lack of oxygen is what caused most of the issues with her organs. She was taken off the ventilator Tuesday and she passed away Wednesday morning. She is a year and 4 days older than me. They don't know why she had a heart attack. I have had chest pain for months and they assured me my heart was fine. I know my cousin had other medical issues and I'm not comparing her symptoms with mine. I'm just trying to live life to the fullest while I'm here because tomorrow isn't promised to anyone.

Hi Kim,

I am so sorry for your loss!  Losing people we love is heartbreaking.  Unfortunately we will never have the answers to all our questions about why and how and when... you absolutely have to keep moving forward, stay in the present and enjoy life.  I find that is the best way to keep anxiety from taking over.  It is hard, but I am sure that is what your cousin would want for you.  

Again my condolences,

Linda

Hi Kim , I was just wondering how your coping with this as I’m in a similar situation . I’m a 22 year old female , I’ve always dealt with my health anxiety fine , but in November my best friend who was also 22 died suddenly of a stroke . . Since then I’ve been lost and my anxiety has got to a point where I feel so hopeless . I cry everyday , I get all these weird body symptoms I’m actually just a wreck . I keep thinking that I’m I’ll or that I’m dying and just can’t seem to brush all these weird feelings aside. 

Thank you for your reply. Life is so precious and I've spent a lot of mine lately wondering and worrying about the issues with my body I have no control over anyways.

Well I was having the chest pains and problems with my body before this happened to my cousin. Im in some sort of flare up with the pain that seemed to be brought on by being upset and not resting well going back and forth to the hospital. My cousin's mother has a blood clot in her liver and is now in a care facility so my stress level is still extremely high along with high body inflammation and positive ANA markers. I am seeing a rheumatologist soon that my doctor is sending me to. I'm sorry to hear about your friend and i definitely understand the anxiety, and thoughts that can go through your mind...and the pain that can go through your body. Anxiety can cause a lot of bad things to happen to our bodies. It creates real physical reactions. I hope you are doing ok. Time does help but i wouldn't say it heals all wounds. I'm going to be messed up for quite a long time. I've lost several people over the last few years. My anxiety about my own health is through the roof and I'm really worried about my aunt.