I've had anxiety before, when I was around 13 I can't really remember it but I do remember it affected me so much I thought I was going crazy and at 13 you can imagine how scary that is as I didn't even know what anxiety was. Now I'm 15, Recently it's come back and hit me so hard. It began when I started searching up stuff about astral projection ect and started to go on about demons and me already being extremely scared of things like that, it did scare me. I'd just moved out of sharing a room with a sister all my life to going into my own to which must of made an impact but anyway, I began to have panic attacks because I was thinking about demons and it must of turned into some sort of obsession as it was all I was thinking about and this caused me an awful lot of anxiety. Now, all I can think about is how anxious I'm feeling every single second. As soon as I wake up I think ''How am I feeling'' ''Am I going to be able to cope today'' ect and this sets me off feeling anxious for the day. I'm so lost with what to do, I'm constantly searching things up for reassurance that I'm not going crazy and when I'm not searching I'm convincing myself it's something else and I am going crazy. It's becoming beyond a joke. I have all my GCSE's coming up and I cant focus on anything what so ever when I'm so behind in everything. Due to not being able to sleep I've had to start taking herbal sleeping tablets, and I cannot be relaxed and calm in bed unless I have my mum lying with me which is pretty pathetic. I've started going to the gym, but yet again I am distracted with these thoughts of not feeling right in myself, feeling like I'm not myself, feeling constantly worried and I can't pinpoint what it is. I'm so scared incase I lose patience and do something incredibly stupid. I feel so alone and scared, I've told my mum and she tells me I need to stop thinking about it now and gets really mad when I say I cant. She's trying to help but I don't think she understands me properly, I feel so awful and helpless and such a burden to her and my family. I'm feeling so disconnected from everything and feel like I'm living inside my head.
Someone PLEASE help me, I'm so worried I love my family so much and I don't want to push them away or hurt them/worry them or anything like that
Hi, Atanya.. Sweetie, I believe what you have is a chemical imbalance in your brain. You may need some uplifters called antidepressants along with anti- anxiety meds. Be sure to tell your doctor how you feel. You Mum or anyone else could never understand how you feel unless they have experienced it themselves. Please keep in informed on your progress. You are not alone!!
Hi, yeah I do want to visit the doctors but my mum doesn't want me on any sort of medication as I'm only young. She believes it's hormones and having an over-active imagination which I do have and I completely over analyse everything and I honestly don't want to be relying on medication at 15 years of age is there anything else you could suggest?
My mum was the same I had one of my first really bad panic attacks at 9 then at 14. My mum too said it was hormones and worrying was a normal part of being a teenager ( not to that extent). Im now 28 and have just started on antidepressants my panic attacks have come back along with anxiety and depression. Try and get yourself to your doctor. Dont try and deal with this by yourself at your young age. I don't want you to be in the same boat as me when all your past problems come flooding back at once. Xxxxx good luck xxxx
Aw Huni, the best thing you can do is not google too much, we all do it but its very unhelpful for anxiety sufferers. Your mum is probably a little worried and doesnt want to see you suffering, but if you can talk to her, maybe ask her if she will take you to the doctor and see what he/ she says. The curiosity about astral travel happened to me when i was a little bit older than you and its just a part of growing up and being curious about the world, but unfortunately with the internet now so much misinformation is around. There was no internet in my day thank goodness! I would have scared myself searching for answers to things. Try telling yourself "i will cope well today" instead of "am i going to cope today"... A positive mindset really really helps... X
Hi, yeah I feel like nobody understands what so ever even when I try to explain. I'm just wondering if this is all a part of my stress levels, because I'm going through a stressful time at the minute with being behind with all my coursework with GCSE's. I keep getting so scared incase I can't control myself and end up doing something stupid. I'm so worried about it with my mum as I try to explain but tells me she can't deal with it and I'll have to go to my dads which causes me so much worry as I need her she's literally the only one who can comfort me. Is there anything I'd be able to do other than take medication? I don't want that, I just want to be a normal happy teen. I feel like my life's ajusted and I haven't gosh it's so terrifying xx
Hi, yeah she is worried I don't want her to be so I feel like keeping it to myself but then worry cause I can't cope alone. I actually love her to peices and she doesn't deserve to put up with this but I don't know how else I can cope. I don't feel comfortable with myself atall it's just effecting ever part of me so much I've become obsessed with getting better then worry incase nothing will help me xx
Is there a school councillor you can talk to in confidence? Most secondary schools have one now and students can just refer themselves for a little chat. It is a very stressful age
Hey honey don't beat yourself up about how your mum does not deserve all this because you certainly do not do it on purpose .. she is your mum and will love you unconditionally and support and be there for you no matter what the issue is .. concentrate on your own needs that's what us mums are there for .. anxiety is a horrible feeling I can't stand it and I'm 32 so at your age it must be even more frightening .. But these feelings are just literally feelings they cannot harm you in anyway even though they are horrible at times .. You should book into your doctors so you can speak to someone about it I can understand you don't want to take med's for it but there are lots of other alternative treatments put there for you xx
It's so hard because she's so stressed but it's horrible it's a consistent feeling, I've been questioning if I even have anxiety but because I've been thinking about the feeling so much I've convinced myself and I'm actually going crazy?? I feel disgusting, I wake up and the first thought is ''How do I feel today'' and then I look around me and the things I see are familiar but I feel sort of like I'm not actually there or something? it just doesn't feel right I'm so scared x
It is anxiety huni.. You are only young still and you need a doctor or therapist to explain to you why you body is handling stress in this way. Our bodies are very clever machines and they are actually designed to give us all sorts of signals when we are under alot of stress but we live in such a fast paced society now that we ignore the signs until they cant be ignored any longer! As you age you will learn coping strategies and signs to look out for to tell you to take action and not ignore.... It feels frightening right now because you are so young and dont understand why itis happening but i can assure you, you are not going mad !
Will I ever feel normal again? Like I used to or do I have to put up with feeling like I dont even know my family and feel so detatched? I'm so lost it's driving me into a really bad way I'm becoming sad and feel as though I'm stuck like this
My problems started at 14, i'm now 35 & wish that i had the internet at your age to seek out help. Nothing was done for me & I think this is why I still have issues now. Trying not to sound to dishearteneing though because it's great that you've come on here for help. Have you tried reading some self help books? "women who over think" & "Overcoming obsessive thoughts" are good books to start with. Stress does do strange things to you & GCSEs is a very stressful time. I remember it well. Going to the gym & having a caring Mum to lay with you is fantastic. My mother wasn't so great, emotionally unavailable & argumentative! It could be a whole lot worse.
Thats why you need to see the doctor huni... And if your doctor isnt helpful, see another! Or tell the school councillor all of this and ask if they can refer you for some therapy. Sometimes when we have ignored the signs and let things go for a while we need a bit of help and support to get back to whatever normal is for us. You won't feel like this always but you do need to learn to recognise when its time to ask for help... Doctors are well equipped to spot the signs of anxiety but they will always try and let the patient resolve it on their own until they have to step in, but you must tell the doctor how awful it has got
Hi, yeah the only problem is I have a hold of the internet so I can keep researching when I feel like I need to let go of this and just carry on normally. I don't know if I'm obsessing over the thoughts and making myself feel this way by thinking and I need to forget about it to get over it or I do genuinely just feel like this if that makes sense? My thoughts are scaring me and I keep thinking I'm insane and like nothing is real, is this normal for anxiety sufferers? I'm seeing a doctor today I'm just hoping they can help me with this I'm scared of losing patience
It's totally normal with anxiety, i feel like I'm gong to go into psychosis at any moment or have a breakdown. It's good to find some time away from all this internet stuff, whilst it's good to get support form other people you need down time to learn to shut off & relax. i hope your doctor apppointment went OK!