Hi Aga, your anxiety is making you continuously worry about going back to work, like Karen worrying about bedtime and how it will be bad again, our anxiety actually convinces us it will be bad, it's terrible. Try to think tonight I may get a good sleep and start feeling better soon, both of you, also think you could feel better when you go back to work, give it a try if not make an excuse but you will have tried. You need o keep your strength up, try to eat something, know how you feel when you say you just want it to go, I was so impatient and worried constantly that I would never feel better, it will pass, know it seems never ending and hopeless, it isn't, glad you've got each other , I and many others went through this alone , was scared stiff, thought I would go round bend. Stick in there your both stronger than you think. Also get those doctors to listen, tell them what you've been through, they should be reasuring you and giving you all help and options available. Hope tomorrow's better❤️
Thank you Edwina 😗I know avoidance is the worst thing I can do. I am going back to work, I have to , not only for money but for myself , to go to people. But Ive been off for 3 weeks and im just stressed coming back, that I will feel s**t and stressed over there , its going to be a nightmare working with side effects. But I need to get thru this. Thank you for your words and support Edwina, really made me think and made me feel better 😘hope you are feeling okay xxx
Thank you Edwina, you are right about avoidance, logically I know it's my mind telling me it will happen! But sadly I can't think logically at the moment!
It's reassuring to know that from yours and others experiences there will, hopefully be a light at the end of the tunnel.
Thank you
Hope you have a better night aga xxx
Are you off to bed now ? Let me know how doctors visit went x thinking of you 😗😗😗😗
No still up lol can't decide what to do!!
How you doing? Xx
Hi, I'm wondering how you're doing now Karen?
I was on 30mg mirtazipine for 3 weeks and couldn't cope with the severe anxiety, nausea, inability to eat in the day, plus awful dreams etc anymore so my GP has lowered me to 15mg plus 10mg Escitalopram (which I had been on before cutting out and upping the Mirt to 30mg).
I'm three days into my new regime of 15 mirt and 10 escitalopram and feeling just as bad.
Hi Nikki
I stopped the Mirtazapine about 10 days ago , I think. ?!
Dr has also put me on Quetiapine morning and night with 10mg Escitilopram.
Still not much better, as soon as I wake get rush of anxiety It's awful, its usually about 5am but last night was at 12.30!!!
I really don't know what the answer is anymore , but I know I've had enough of feeling like this!!
Hi Karen
I understand. I too get that rush of anxiety as soon as I wake (or it wakes me up?!) and it doesn't let up.
I understand your feeling about wondering what the answer is. I've not felt this bad for this long before. But I try to keep reminding myself there will be improvement at some point.
They do say it takes weeks for things to take effect or get out of your system.
I'm sending support and strength x
It's horrible isn't it Nikki?
Why is it happening, I never had it before on any other medication.
I try telling myself it will get better, but jeez it doesn't feel like it at the moment!
I wonder how much of it is adjusting to coming off/ going on medication. Mirtazipine really didn't agree with me at a higher dose as it sounds like for you too.
Maybe it takes a long time to adjust. It seems that way for me.
It's very hard x
Hi Karen, I was just reading another forum and it seems we're not alone. I read some reassuring words from people who had gone through what we are and after many weeks, things improved. It seems the heightened anxiety particularly bad in the am or all day is very common when starting these same meds. When I say starting, I mean 6,8,10 weeks or so!
I've just written a reminder to myself that everything I'm experiencing is part of the chemical adjustment going on in my brain and body. When you're in it, it's hard to think isn't it!
X
Wow that's really interesting and kind of reassuring Nikki.
At least we know it's quite common now and not just us.
I listened to a mindfulness for anxiety meditation on you tube earlier, that helped too x
It is difficult to think it when your in that anxious/panic state.
Gosh how many weeks!!!! Lol x
Hi Karen. Know that feeling as well. When somebody tells you it may take 6 to 10 weeks for things to get back to normal , you feel like you just want out, like what do I do , stick with it as you've come so far. It may not take that long, it's crappy when you're in the midst of it not knowing what each day will bring but you'll look back and it will have been worth it. Wish they had a med that would sort everything straight away but I suppose anyone wit any illness wants that. Just a worrying frustrating waiting game. Hope you get sorted, glad other post has reasured you it's not unusual and lots of others with same dilemma. Keep posting for support, hope you feel better soon😊❤️
Thank you so much Edwina 😊
I listened to a mindfulness for anxiety on you tube earlier which helped.
Just want to see light at the end of the tunnel, like everyone does, ❤️
Thanks for reply. Keep talking here. Lots of people you can relate to can reasure you there is light at the end of the tunnel. Great supportive people who can share what helped them.😊❤️
I'm sorry if my saying how many weeks caused any extra pressure. It doesn't make the getting through the days easier I know.
I'm glad you found a YouTube video that helped you today.
I keep a little sewing box next to my sofa and I just do little bits of sewing to give me a bit of grounding during the rollercoaster. Just for the sake of it, nothing ambitious!!
You will adjust to your medication, keep going x
Oh gosh Nikki no!! I knew it would be weeks, honestly ❤️
I wish I had a hobby or something like that to occupy my mind, I'm guessing it helps you a little, I hope it does ❤️
Gosh it's getting close to bedtime again I get now that I'm dreading it .
I understand the dreading bedtime. I know it's because I'll take my meds and start the day feeling awful again.
I'm just trying to get into the day but the anxiety and restlessness is full on again. Just waved my son off as he's going out for the day with his mates (he's 14).
I'm dealing with intrusive thoughts (most days) and just telling myself that's what they are. I'm resisting taking a diazepam but I do take one or two or three most days to get through. Sometimes it takes the edge off, other times it doesn't do much or makes me feel a bit down. But they're my back up at the moment!
My sewing is a help in that it gives me a focus but very much like a little anchor through the day and evening. Sometimes I can only do a few stitches then have to stop and rest. I used to draw and paint but find that's too much at the moment.
Thinking of you x