hi, I haven't posted in a while, but I've recently been getting headaches from overthinking and doing and thinking things repetitively. Im in a position where when someone explains something to me, the information doesn't go in cuz im either repetitively thinking of a thought, on loop or just completely blank. im wondering if anyone is experiencing this. also, I am very superstitious where for example, if im having a bad day or im getting paranoid, I will do irrational things, this has altered my thinking and is messing me about. for instance, if im worrying about a job interview, in regards to me getting the job, I will do all sorts of things like, flip a coin,.and i has to land on a certain side each time, or touch something hot for five seconds or if a blue car comes within 45 secs something bads gunna happen. when I swallow food or drink I have to think of a certain thing, for each gulp I make, otherwise I think summut bads gunna happen or when I do normal things, these irrational thoughts kill me, im starting to feel depressed again and I feel like im seriously harming myself. I don't know what to do. I could go on but I'm finding it hard to explain. can someone give me.some advice or just any clarity to wats going on. much appreciated.
Im not 100% certain, but for me I know I completely am too. Some of those things are exactly how I feel too with the superstitions. But I also think those are rituals you’re starting to make. Something that in your brain sort of justifys the anxiety and is an attempt to relieve the anxiety. OCD a lot of times I feel is about needing to feel some sort of control, being in control and the thoughts make you question that, despite knowing they are irrational. Just know that those superstitions are completely normal for me as well, so were not completely alone. I hope you feel better, for me a good good therapist understood and helped along with some medication. Not saying to jump to meds but that it did help me.
thanks mark for replying, ive been unable to cope, have you gone through therapy, and do you feel it worked? im sorry your experiencing this also and hopefully this will soon pass.