I was taking Naltrexone and then binged for 5 days on my vacation. Drank so much I forgot to take my medication. It's now been 8 days of a liter of vodka every day. Can't sleep and can't get my heart to stop. Don't have the shakes buT that's because I'm still drinking some almost every hour. Barely eat much each day and can't tell my wife. Same story I've said before. Sorry to keep complaining. I need to taper but can't get the knot in my stomach to unclench. I was down to two drinks a day and then this happens. I keep thinking I'll have the will power to taper but I don't even wait for the shakes which I know is the sign. Have to cut down.
You can continue to take the Naltrexone one hour before drinking per The Sinclair Method in addition to your taper schedule. Check with your doc on when to take another dose if you'll be drinking longer than (for instance) 12 hours after your first dose.
Drinking without the Naltrexone kills your progress and runs you backwards towards a more addicted state. Don't do that, not even once. The Lizard Brain is relentless about getting you to drink, you have to be more relentless towards the old lizard and take the Naltrexone an hour before your first drink, every time.
Thanks again. I'll keep taking it no matter what. Sometimes the anxiety is so strong I can't go an hour without a unit. Also since I work graveyard I'm up way too much. I don't know how people have survived doing this for years. I know I have AUD and it just effects me so horribly.
First, I'm a bit confused, you say you binged for 5 days, but you've been drinking a litre of vodka for 8 days.
My advice for what it's worth, is you need to see your dr and try to get medication to enable you to detox safely. Going cold turkey is too dangerous, no matter how much will power you have.
Tapering requires a lot of self control, sounds simple enough, but after a couple of drinks, your alcoholic brain takes over, along with your resolve to drink less.
I can certainly relate to the knot in your stomach and drinking to relieve it. Yes it does, but it's very temporary relief as you're finding out. I reached the point where this temporary relief no longer happens. The alcohol stops 'working'. In other words you're drinking more and more with no benefit.
How come your wife hasn't noticed? I would have thought drinking a litre of vodka daily would be noticeable.
Your main priority is to detox and try and tell your wife as you will need her support. As I said before, the safest and best way imo is with medication. However, Drs don't like prescribing benzos like diazapam or Librium and may refer you to an alcohol recovery centre
I'm pretty sure she does suspect but since I work graveyard we have completely opposite schedules so when she's at work I'm at home trying to sleep and it when she gets home I try to play it off. It started off as a binge for five days and then continued on for 8.
Well I'm trying to taper down in 6 days. Wish me luck.
Just get it down to a dull roar, as with TSM you don't go whiteknuckle against the craving anyway. Steady as she goes, I7.
My wife caught me hiding vodka. We got into a huge fight and I couldn't stop drinking. I don't know why I'm so self destructive. I think she is going to leave me. Im coming down so hard I had to call out to work.
I7...you are not self destructive..you need help...to stop.
Thank you. My withdrawals are so bad and my wife will only let me sip beer. This is rock bottom. I almost had her take me to the er. I don't want to drink anymore. I'm killing myself with booze, my wife is going to leave me. God I'm so tired.
I'll second that, you're not destructive I7. You're just addicted to alcohol and your control isn't very good yet. It sounded like you were doing fine before vacation, but you simply can't drink without the Naltrexone. Not ever.
I was doing good. I just had way too much to drink and I've been sneaking it at work as well. I am an alcoholic. My wife should leave me. She is too afraid to leave me alone. I think I would keep drinking if she wasn't here.
Sounds like you're running into a bit of the old binger "self-loathing", but don't worry. You'll work through it.
Do you keep a few pills with you in your wallet so they're convenient if you run into a surprise drinking situation? It really takes something like that to ensure you don't run into an unprotected drinking situation.
I usually do. I've been drinking 20 units a day and now my wife won't I've me anymore alcohol.
Called out again today from work. Wifey is helping with the taper. This is so hard. Had a hallucination earlier. Scared the cap out of me. Could not tell it was not real.
Is that because you have not had any alcohol. You cannot just stop. No way in the world would I do that. It is slowly does it for me.
Bet that really worried you, don't risk it again. Meds or slowly does it bud.
G.
Hi I7..your not alone....I started the binge around the same time...I tried to taper on Thursday and it didn't work so good....lots of benzodiazapenes was got me thru my first day...and they were making me dream crazy stuff..but here we are....we can get by it...keep fighting...I am.
Thank you. I can't get any benzos. Im still trying to taper and have to go to work tomorrow.
Hang in there, mate!
I have some responsibilties tommorow too.
I'm panicking about them.
Hope work goes well for you....and the taper.