Can any one give me any advice?

I have been diagnosed with a large rectocele, grade 3, which was discovered when I underwent analphysiology at the London Royal, as I am also suffering with intersusseption. This has been on going for a few years, but the pain has been getting worse. I have seen the consultant who assigned me a bowel nurse, who is lovely, and he wanted me to try Peristeen, an irrigation system, to empty my bowels. Previously I used suppositories.

I struggled with the concept of the Peristeen, and it's actual use, now I am taking movicol, suppositories as well as using the Peristeen, under the supervision of the bowel nurse. She has said I will need surgical intervention. I am 52, no children, and this has got me sooo very down. The replacement catheters arrived yesterday by parcel post, and I just broke down. I cannot face this for the rest of my life, by the surgeon seemed to think I would cope, as " other people have" . I am now nervous about going out, I am off work with anxiety and depression, my whole life revolves around getting the balance right between the the laxative, suppository and Peristeen. I get it right for a couple of days, then it goes to pot.

My husband cannot understand why I am still in pain, I try to explain that when the rectocele empties it will only fill up again. Sex is painful. Can I insist on surgery, I don't think I can cope with vey much more. Sorry to be a wimp.

could you seek a second opinion to see if there's anything else for you out there?

Ive just noticed the date of your post....

So sorry to hear of your troubles Flossy. I cant give you any advice really except to say you can insist on an operationn I am currently awaiting a repair operation but had to really 'push it' before they agreed I could have an operation. I wish you well anyway. Keep your chin up.