Depressed + Anxiety?

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Hi..

Im not sure if I should add my age but, i'm one year off my teenage years..

Well it started when i thought I had depression about a month or so ago. I was pretty down most of the time, and I found it hard to concentrate in my lessons. I always was doing something like clenching my teeth, moving my jaw forward in a weird way, clicking my tongue etc. ( I still do find it hard to concentrate in lessons to this day) I pretty much cried in the night because I worried I may have depression. I took a few depression tests and checked the symptoms of it. My score on the test was something like 18/24? Something like that. I had no one to turn to [neutral] .. I couldn't tell my parents either. My friend (that I only told because I thought she may have it too because she self-harms. I have never thought about harming myself, as i am afraid of knives) told me to tell a teacher I trust at school. Problem - I dont trust any...It's super awkward when I have one on one talks with teachers or and adult. Let alone my parents. Every time I felt; 'I'm gonna tell someone today, I really need support and help' I just had a meltdown and changed my mind immedietly..My mind was like 'nope'. I also have a journal which I have started writing in putting in my feelings and that. I couldn't seem to find anyone with the support I needed to comfort me.. to tell me it was okay.

After a few days I just came to a conclusion I wasn't depressed, even though the sadness and being down continued.

Now, around 1 or 2 weeks ago, I searched up anxiety; just being curious what the symptoms were as I saw that if you have depression you may have anxiety too. On the test i scored 16/24 (around that). It mentioned about worrying, not enough sleep (on symptons) etc. I had always worried about everything and It kept me awake at night most of the times. My main worry was homework because I couldn't help doing it at the last minute and rushing to get it done. Or, I loose it and get in trouble and get detention (even though i've never had one yet). I worry about EVERYTHING! This has also led to not concentrating (as i said before) in class or lessons. There was too many thoughts going aout in my head at once. I have had trouble concentrating on reading in class too. Apart from a book I have, i'm quite into it. I also worry about the tinyest things. I am always self concious about being judged about my hair, clothes etc. I feel like I have to fit in with society. I am quite skinny too, and I havent been eating very good lately. Im scared I may get anorexia If i carry on bu i am trying my best. But then again I also worry. What if this, what if that? It was always such negative doubts or thoughts..

Im sorry this article is jumping from topic to topic,

But i Really need help.

Its really affecting me with my daily life in school and out..

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Forgot to mention some things -

Irratable at family easily

Panic easily and when it happens my heart races so fast..

Heavy breathing

dont know if this is one of them but stomch ache alot?

I dont want to include anymore because I dont want it to look like I am just writing down all symptoms of it! I have almost everything on the list

 

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Don't know if your hormones are causing a lot of your symptoms or if you've suffered some kind of trauma in the past. Something's triggered all this negativity. I think your anxiety is causing you to be depressed. Think you should get to a doc ASAP, tell your parents or a trusted adult. Your symptoms can be releaved, you don't need to suffer.

Bit short on time at the moment but keep us posted on how your feeling and if you manage to speak up bout your feelings.

One day you'll look back at this episode and you may even be able to help others with similar problems

Take care ☺️

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You sound exactly like me when I was in high school! It took a long time for me to come forward to someone, too- it took me way too long. You said you don't self-harm and that's good. I never thought I would, either. I eventually did and that's when I realized that I had a problem. Don't let it get out I control! Go to your family doctor and tell them that you need to take a depression ranking test. Depending on your score, they can suggest treatments or find a psychiatric professional to help you. Hang in there- you CAN get better! But you can't do it alone. Best of luck- always here for you!

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Thank you so much, it means alot

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Thank you!

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Hi,

I can relate to a lot of what you have said. School was one of the worst times for me & it's where my problems developed. It's important to act now & help yourself before things get worse. Don't wait for things to get worse before you get help. It's hard when you feel like you don't have people to turn to but family members would want you to be honest & talk to them. Definitely look in to having counselling or maybe even hypnotherapy which has proved VERY helpful. You'd be surprised how good it feels to talk and get things off your chest, sometimes to someone who doesn't know you & has no pre judgements of you. Definitely take control & don't let this beat you!