Hi, I’m Madeline. I’m 13, turning 14 soon, and I’m wondering if I’ll even make it to high school. I have about two months until summer, and I constantly wonder if anyone cares. I have friends, but none of them seem to genuinely care about me or my emotions. I’ve constantly opened up about my depression and suicidal thoughts, but everyone just sees me as the ‘happy friend.’ I can’t take medication or go to therapy due to my parents’ beliefs, but I want to find happiness. I just can’t seem to be happy. I’m really tired and I’ve been thinking about methods that don’t involve self-harm, but I need help and guidance. I hope someone finds this and can give me some advice.