i dont know if anyone else has experienced this but after feeling severely depressed for many weeks,I gradually realised that i felt nothing at all,and cant even get any words out to express this.I cant remember what i would have been like before.it feels a bit like I am watching myself do things but Im not quite 'me'.What is this?I have been taking Mirtazapine 30mg for 6 weeks now and was on Citalapram 20mg for the last 2 weeks but got tinnitus so had to stop that.ithink Ive felt like this for quite a while,its odd.It would be interesting to know if its just me or not.
Not sure whether it's the same thing but a couple of times this year I experienced something which seems similar to me.
The first time I experienced it I had decided to suddenly stop taking the citalapram and lithium I was on. Can't really say why I decided to do stop taking the medication but it seemed like a sensible thing to do at the time.
It's hard to explain really, but one of the effects of my sudden change in medication was the feeling that although I was looking through my own eyes it was as if I was another person. That doesn't quite seem to totally express how I felt but it's kind of in the right area.
A quick visit to the doctor put me in my place and a few weeks later I was back on my medication and feeling soooooo much more normal.
More recently I experienced the same thing again but whilst I was still taking my medication. The most vivid memory I have of it was when I was in a team meeting and talking to the others. I was at the table and talking but it was like I was looking from behind and through my own eyes and when I talked it was also like somebody else was talking (not really but kind of!?!?!?AAARGH - must be a better way of describing it). Once again the doctor seems to have resolved the problem by changing my medication (and that's a another story!!!)
I can't be sure whether my description feels the same to you as the 'empty head' you describe but the one thing I learnt was that if you aren't feeling right talk to people and get some professional advice. I'm not sure how you feel about your doctor but I always felt that mine wasn't really listening to me and so I decided to get a second opinion and I feel much more comfortable with my new doc.
At the moment im strugglin with emptyness and not able 2 explain thease feelings 2 my workers. Im just not understandin wots happenin 2 me. Im not feelin anythingwhen i stop think ahead my head just blocks and shuts down. Im not able 2 feel any feelins good bad happy sad excitement emotion there is nothing it like im lost dead empty on auto pilot livin in a bubble under water. Does any1 understand this?
I can completley relate to this feeling of emptyness. i was diagnosed with reactive depression last year, and although im functioning fine now with my everyday life, i feel like my emotions have been blunted, its like i've got a big bowl of apple pie and cream but i've got no taste buds. isn't the mind a funny thing. all i know is its good to know yout not alone.
Hi,
I've been suffering from depression on and off for many years (I now realise - :? ) I had the feeling of being 'empty' for several months before the drugs kicked in fully. It was the strangest feeling - I sort of describe it as if I'm floating around the world and not connecting with anything/anyone else. Does that sound familiar?
Just to say it does get better- and it is a huge relief when the emptiness subsides.
I was thinking about this very thing today. The picture that popped into my head was that there was a cable coming out of my feet with a plug on the end, but the plug was just lying on the floor by the socket, not plugged in. It's odd isn't it? I feel as though if I could just find a way to plug that cable in to the socket I would start to have energy again and feel like I was connected to the world. One day I think I will.
Thank you 4 replyin, iv done the best 2 try and explain 2 my GP its not the easiest feeling 2 explain. Iv been on 100mg sertreline 4 the last 3 years she thinks it could be that (if so y now) so put it down 2 50mg (i would b liyin if i said i not worried. I dont no if this numbness is a good thing or not, i do no its a scary feelin. U all take care.
I am new to this forum and can relate to this empty feeling people are talking about. I have been on cipralex for 3 weeks. My doc says it is associated with the anxiety . Has anybody else had this ? She also said it will go as the tablets start working . Has anyone got any comments -all appreciated !!
Me empty too! Im 32 now and have just been diagnosed with depression (3 weeks ago). I have kept most emotions out of my head, Involuntarily, since i was 15.
I had panic attacks when i was 15, and my way of coping with them was to \"Close the doors\". They still close without my control when things get on top of me. Personally, i like it!
Hey hun, i am on citalopram, probably just coz I am an alcoholic, mind you I am that, as that was my way of coping withit!!!! Closing doors...aint sooo bad... I hope you get better.. I am 31 now...looking forward...and actually hping I might live to make it to 32. I have victim suppotr tom!! feel sad that I even have to manage to go...but |I cant go on like I have. Our budget has been cut by three hundred pounds and my partner is wondering ewhy we cant survive...(we could barely survive befor) so god knows , what is going to happen? I have been taking this pill for months, and yet, although I know I amgetting beter, quite frankly I would rather stay under my duvet and rot, ...now , in the face of danger, I just think..oh well, it might just kill me! (You never know your luck!)..Sorry, I hope you get over whatever has got you down!!! Coz, hopefully , you can!, Love Tiny Tears.
I 2 used 2 do this with my emotions. Iwood tell myself if i not think about them and put them 2 the back of my head they were delt with or id 4get about them. It worked 4 a while untill 2 years ago and i had a total break down, then 2 find out i was suffering deppresion 4 the last 12 years only after breakin some of the silence and wot had been happening 2 me. Im not a talker and i thought i was dealing with things, i wasnt then came the drinkin, the eatin disorders,and everything else u name it i done it. Now its trying 2 deal with and re live the last 38 years but im startin 2 relive life in fear. Am findin it 2 easy 2 keep quiet hide away and pretend everything is ok i no its wrong but i not stop myself from doing it. When will i learn.
Shadow//me toooo. When too stop thdebouchary???? Good question.. I cant sleep now!!